On November 5 at 4:00 pm our family lost Georgie Amaya. Our hearts are filled with sorrow, shattered. I am still wanting to believe that this is not real. George Anthony was 18 year old kid, despite everything he had gone through in his life he managed to pull through. He could brighten up a room with his smile, he could make anyone laugh. We just can't believe it. George survived the murder of his mother when he was 8 years old, his mother was my step sister and also my aunt. I loved his mother with all my heart and lost her 10 years ago. Today I lost another piece of my heart is torned with his death. He was involved in a car accident, was unconscious the whole time until he was pronounced dead.

I sit here tonight for some of you morning, writing this... My husband online at the home computer looking at the intersection of his accident trying to figure out where he was going, he was suppose to be driving home from college for the weekend to visit his dad. So here I am in phoenix, az and my uncle morning the loss of his son in Indiana. Trying to figure out how we are going to get there. My kids are devastated, it's just not real... It can't be real. I keep having the feeling like I am going to wake up and it will be a dream... I haven't cried like this since christy; his mother passed away. I can't believe I will be saying bye to georgie forever the same way I said bye forever to his mom.

So sad, so sad I am I can't hold the tears.... I can't bring him back, I can't tell him how much I loved him and when I could I didn't say it enough. I just can't bear, I can't explAin the sadness in my heart. I nlooked at his Facebook today so many people poring their hearts out saying so many great things about him. That's truly who he was, loving, caring, kind and full of life just like his mom. An amazing kid has now become an angel.

I keep having this vision of him laying there At the hospital... He's half way with us and half way in heaven and his mom came for him... She's so happy to see him... She ask him if he's ready to be with her, he smiles and says yes... And there he went he's now with her and thats the only peace I have. He's with her and they are together at last. Christy and georgie... You hold a special place in my heart always and forever, you have a piece of it in heaven with you, I know my baby is also with you... I love you all very much. Please watch over us from heaven and allow all of our hearts the opportunity and strength to heal with time.

Please pray for our family and for george's father who hasn't always been the greatest dad ( my uncle) but he sacrificed a lot to make sure Georgie had what he needed and wanted growing up. I cannot begin to imagine the pain and emptiness my uncle is feeling right now, please keep him in your prayers tonight.

On a separate note, as the old saying goes... Do not take your loved ones for granted they are easily taken from you. I was very closed to georgies mother , closer to her than my own sister. I had an opportunity to say bye to her the last time I saw her alive... I chose not to. I live with the guilt every day. I've been thinking about Georgie for almost 2 weeks telling myself I need to call him... I never picked up the dam phone to check on him and now I won't ever get to hear his voice. Before my son Alex Georgie was my little man.. I fed him, changed his diaper, exchanged many sweet moments with him... He was my inspiration for wanting to be a mother... He will continue to be my I spiration to be a better mother.

If you read this up to this point... From the bottom of my heart thank you.

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2rays...
Nov. 6, 2010 at 10:09 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss.. yes you're right he's with his mom and also have returned to the Most High.. your fam will be in our prayers ((big hugs))

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Kelly...
Nov. 6, 2010 at 12:59 PM

  I am so sorry.  I am sending my prayers....praying

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