Everyday is just another ordeal.  If it is not one thing it's another.  When does it ever end?  Sometimes I just want to run away and not deal with anything anymore.  Is that wrong???

For once, just once, I would like for things to go my way, or how I want them to go, ya know?  Just once.  I don't want to have to fight for anything or argue about anything.  Just wake up in the morning and have it be a "Me" day. But alas, the dream never happens.

I know life is hard, marriage is hard, raising children is hard, caring for elder parents is hard, maintaining relationships is hard.  But damn it does it have to be so effin hard? 

Yeah, yeah I know what doesn't kill us makes us stronger...Right now I'm opting for the kill me part!!

I'm really not a bad person, do the choices I make in my life the right ones or the perfect ones, No they're not.  But I do the best that I can.  I work with what I got.  I want to be happy, I want the people in my life to be happy as well. But for some reason our mutual happiness is not always the same thing.  Go figure!

So I say, I'm tired.  I'm tired of trying, I'm tired of always being wrong, I'm tired of always being the bad person, I'm just plain ole effin tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Nov. 16, 2010 at 10:51 PM

I think a lot of people are feeling like you are..HUGS!juggling

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