I recently lost a very dear friend. We grew up together and lost touch for a few years and in the last 2 weeks I have had the privilege of getting to know him again. I was supposed to go see him thursday and I decided not to go and that night he killed  himself. He had been depressed over the mother of his kids who cheated on him with his cousin. I feel so guilty that I didn't go over there that night. and no one really knows how I feel. We had his funeral today and last night after the visitation I got a memorial tattoo for him. I miss him soo much and now that the services are over I'm even more depressed. I keep expecting him to call me or send me a message. We had a friendship that I never had with anyone else. I feel like I could have stopped him and I know that its not my fault but it feels that way. my friend says that it's prolly a good thing that I didn't go over there becuz he called his ex to the house and did it in front of her. and my friend says that I may have gotten in the middle of it if I had gone. I know time heals all wounds but this kind of wound is gonna take years to heal.

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Nov. 14, 2010 at 9:52 PM

 So sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. It is so sad but hopefully you will find comfort in those around you and in the Lord.

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Nov. 14, 2010 at 10:09 PM

Sorry about your loss, sending prayers! I know it would be hard not to just because were all human, but do not feel guilty! He was clearly very upset to begin with, so maybe if anything, you gave him more time!

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