I need to get this out and I hope this is the right place to do it.. Im 18 years old and pregnant with my boyfriend of 3 years.
The day I found out I was pregnant it was a "wtf" moment. I didnt know how to tell my parents, how I would raise a child with no high school education (yet), and having no job.

Now my problem is... I do not know if I want this child. I am totally against abortion and do not think I could give my baby  up for adoption. I feel like I grew up in one day and everything hit me at once. I thought of the past (past is the past, cant change it, leave it alone) and how much my boyfriend has screwed me over and hurt me. Truly hurt me the way the one you love shouldnt. (LONG STORY, rather not explain)(Not physical either, I believe emotional abuse can hurt worse sometimes) Im not ready to have a child with my boyfriend, I get more and more irritated with him everyday. I have got to the point where I dont even know if I want to be with him. I love my boyfriend with all my heart, dont get me wrong..

I am super confused. Lost. Dissapointed. A little happy. Scared. Nervous. I just dont know.

Thanks for reading this if you did.. thanks for listening to my little rant.. I feel much better now.

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knagsmom
Nov. 19, 2010 at 3:57 PM

im sorry ur dealing with this. there are open adoptions too that ur able to get information and pics of ur child

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MSuga...
Nov. 19, 2010 at 4:08 PM

If you very unsure of terminating the pregnancy, look into adoption.  There are open adoptions where you can keep contact with the child , or adoptions you get paid for the adoption and close the deal .  

Children are a lot of work and responsibility for the rest of your life. Even after they turn 18, they still depend on you financially, emotionally, and physically.  I have 4 grown girls who all have children of their own and I am still part of each and every one of them emotionally, financially, and physically helping them out on a daily basis. 

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Kelly...
Nov. 20, 2010 at 6:29 AM

  I cannot ever imagine what you must be going through.  All you can do is follow your heart, and you will know what is best for you and your baby.  Life is so precious.  No matter what decision you make take the time to do all the research and get as much information as you can.  Cafemom has some great support groups.  I am sending lots of prayers your way....hugs

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ISAIA...
Nov. 21, 2010 at 5:42 PM Abortion is something you can not take back I knowbyour scared.sweetie
There is help and resources or someone to.talk to call birthright 1-800-550-4900

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