This time of year there are places missing at the table, ones that only a few short years ago you would have been in smiling that wonderful smile of yours, filling the room with your contagious laugh. Its hard to imagine you in a grassy field full of concrete angels. Its hard to know that I will never again yell the word "mother" and hear the word "daughter" called back at me. This time of the year as my children get bigger, and stronger and things become more difficult, when I could use a wonderful mother at my side it is hard knowing that God took you home so soon.  My children didn't get to know the person they call Nana, the only thing they know is you were my mother and are dearly missed. This time of year there are presents missing under our tree, ones that would have been from and to you, my mother, and my aunt. I know you are in the arms of the angels, and I know you are saying don't worry about me. I just miss you so terribly during this time of year.


  When I think of the Thanksgivings, and Christmas' I had as a child I see my Aunt cooking in the kitchen, small as it was during the holidays it was never lacking love, food, and memories. Why does God always seem to take the glue for the families?? When there is so much hurt in this world, why do we loose the ones that make it just a little more bearable?? This time of year so many families have lost ones so close to them yet we forge on, knowing it may be decades before we are joined with our lost loved ones.  How do you do it? How do you let go of the people who have meant so much to your life  that knowing them has become your entire existence? 

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Nov. 27, 2010 at 4:02 PM

I lost my mom when I was 19 years old. None of my children ever knew her. I know exactly what you are going through, and my heart is with you this holiday season. ****HUGS****



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Nov. 27, 2010 at 4:08 PM

My father died on Christmas day unexpectedly in 2008. The last day I saw him alive was on Thanksgiving. It's SOOOOO hard this time of year for me too. BIG HUGS!!!! I know what you are going through!!!!!

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Nov. 27, 2010 at 5:58 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. I still have my mother with me, so I have absolutely no idea what you're going through this holiday season. I often look at my mama and wonder how many more seasons I'll have the privilege of her company. It sounds like you had a close relationship with your mother, and I am so very thankful for that. My mother has become my best friend in my adult years and I can only think that when she is no longer with me, I'll at least have happy memories of her to get me through the rough times and a legacy to pass on to my own children. As much as I dread the thought of one day losing her, it would be a thousand times worse if I didn't have those small comforts. Wishing you many blessings to come your way. 

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