Am I ever

[rhianonmat]

 ... gonna feel like I'm worth something?  Am I ever gonna believe that any of these people who call me "friend" really care about me? 

I'll be honest... I'm starting to doubt it. 

Right now I feel totally alone.... completely isolated.  My husband's a jerk.  My 4yo hates me and I can't seem to get anything right. 

My life sucks and I'm tired of it. 

I'm tired of feeling used by my "friends".  I'm tired of friends who take and take and never give back or really even bother to say thanks. 

Now.... I wonder if anyone will bother to read this...  

[rhianonmat]

Nov. 27, 2010 at 10:05 PM

14 views and no comments.  I guess I was right.

(Original Poster)

[Groovyflor1]

Nov. 27, 2010 at 11:07 PM

::hugs::  Wish there was something I could do.  If you need someone to listen, I'm here.

[momofkids]

Nov. 28, 2010 at 12:33 AM

I read it.  Just wanted you to know.  I am sorry you are feeling this way.  The only thing I can tell you is that a lot of us feel this way some times.  I know that I have felt that way before.

[Lb128f]

Nov. 28, 2010 at 2:03 AM

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Maybe you and your DH could go to counseling...and I'm sure your child loves you very much...maybe he/she doesn't always show it...but, I'm sure they do. Sometimes life seems "bad"...but, usually time helps in making things better. I hope you will be feeling differently in a few days...if not, counseling for yourself (or you and DH) can help...talk therapy can help you in finding out "why" you are feeling the way you are...and it can also help you find some resolutions to any problems you are having.

[Momforhealth]

Nov. 28, 2010 at 3:00 AM

just wanted you to know rhianomat that I have read your journal and let me tell you there are days that I feel the same way.  I am learning to not expect anything in return when I give and to just feel good about what I have done.  Find some time to do something for you that makes you feel good..like spa day at home, or go shopping..find a good book..do some Christmas decorations...take a class.  Make a list of all the great things you do everyday and feel good and loved about yourself. :)  I loved the books "The Purpose Driven Life" and "The Love Dare"...maybe you will too.

[Chele18504]

Nov. 28, 2010 at 7:32 AM

I know what you mean by "friends".  I have gone through this many times, thinking I was friends with someone only for them to use me for a monetary gift contribution or finding out information for the gossip.  It is very frustrating and this will pass.  I actually don't use the word "friend" in my vocabulary anymore, it actually helps me get through the day. 

[mommommamommyyy]

Nov. 28, 2010 at 8:49 AM

I can relate, sadly.  Just wanted you to know you aren't alone!

[ChicaThis]

Nov. 28, 2010 at 8:12 PM

I think we all feel inferior at times but as long as you don't feel like that all of the time.  If you do, then you should seek help from a professional because you may be clinically depressed.  It sounds like you have a big heart and you deserve great things!

[Saya]

Nov. 28, 2010 at 10:00 PM

I read it.  I hear you.  I'm sorry you're feeling so bad.  Keep on keepin' on.  That's all I can say.  Everything changes.  Bad times go away, and so do good times.  (((((((Hugs)))))))))

[Shy_Dia]

Nov. 29, 2010 at 3:03 AM

i read it too. i feel teh SAME way-- 99% of the time. my "friends" only care if i make a sad/depressing FB status... but they never call, never want to do anything. my life sucks-- i'm being downgraded by my family... my son (5) is falling back into his old ways of not listening to me... and the only time people really talk to me, is when they need something.. want to get the responsibility off THEIR shoulders and put it on mine.

 

i say we take a vacation! just disappear for a while! thats what i'm planning on doing. no one knows (except for those who read this). and i dont plan on telling anybody either. i doubt they'll realize that i'm even gone.