ONE yr ago I had my life changing event, and can not think of WHY I didn't do it sooner.  For as long as I could remember I had been the husky girl, then the chunky one, then flat out the FAT chick, it was just the way it was.  No matter how hard I tried, or what I did, nothing much changed.  I would diet, exercise, get motivated, lose some weight get excited, and then?  I would stop losing, and we all know what happends next...

The cycle of DOOM!!!!  I would get depressed, then eat because I was depressed, gain weight because I binged, then be depressed because I gained, and ate because I was depressed, and so on and so on..

I was addicted to my food, quite frankly I would plan meals days in advance, and EVERYTHING revolved around when and WHAT I was going to eat... AND BOY did I LOVE to eat.  I had a special relationship with food, I called it being a "Picky " eater, but NAH!!! That's not really it... The way I always had a "Special" way of eating the things I really enjoyed.  To be honest, I still stand by the fact that I didn't eat large portions, it was more the things I chose to eat, and how often I ate.  I could chow like it was my last meal, and eat again 15 minutes later, not even being hungry, but being completely unable to say "NO".  It was food, I KNEW it was going to be delicious, so I HAD to eat it... and if it was junk food, it was ON!!!

My husband was always trying to lose weight, eat healthy, and I admired his will power, but I think I also hated him for it.  I was his saboteur.. My poor enabling hubby, I would be a totally BITCH when he was dieting and miserable (you'd think it was ME  NOT eating). 

Then one day two summers ago, my gremlins (1 1/2 then) started saying "I'm Hungry" or "French fries" EVERY time we passed those golden arches, and it HIT me... Like a HUGE ton of bricks...

I'm miserable being fat, and I'm taking them down my miserable path WITH me? I KNOW misery loves company, but my love for them was greater, I had to access my direction, divert my path or RUIN them forever.  I could not live with myself, if I broke the gremlins..

It was time to do SOMETHING, for them , for my beaten husband, for ME!!!!


I've lost 110lbs (that's like TWO super models right??)

can cross my legs

don't fit in my clothes

down 6 sizes

weigh less than 200lbs

weigh less than my husband

smile more

cook everyday

can go a whole day without a nap

make health decisions

have energy

don't mind pictures so much

Eat veggies

don't yell as much

can keep up with TWO 3 year olds

don't miss the Big Mac

STILL LOVE FOOD, but have a MUCH healthier relationship with it..


This my before... I'm the one on the left... bwahahaha (In case there was a doubt)

and this is me one month ago.. I'm the one in the middle.. (WISH I could say I was as skinny as the birthday girl on the right.. bwahahahaha)

Much Love,


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Nov. 30, 2010 at 8:28 AM

Wow!  That is awesome!  Congrats on your trandsformation lol :)  I really need to lose my baby weight too :(

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Nov. 30, 2010 at 8:57 AM

Thanks!!! I still have about 40 more to go, to be where I want to be, but the last ones are always the hardest right??? lol

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Nov. 30, 2010 at 10:15 AM

very honest and inspiring !!! good for you and keep up the good work :) alicia /gardeneraholic

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Nov. 30, 2010 at 10:20 AM

Thanks Alicia.. (=

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Nov. 30, 2010 at 12:10 PM

You look GREAT!!!


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Nov. 30, 2010 at 1:19 PM

you look awesome!!! great job :)

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Nov. 30, 2010 at 2:14 PM

Thank you guys... *blush*

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Nov. 30, 2010 at 3:56 PM

How did you do it?


I have a compulsive overeating disorder. I just got off birth control in hopes that that will help just a tiny bit. Even if I feel less bloated, that will be a small victory. I don't understand how to stop the cycle.

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Nov. 30, 2010 at 8:20 PM

You ROCK, woman!!  You look absolutely gorgeous!  Keep up the good work - you deserve it.  BTW, I have 3-yr-old twins, too! 

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Dec. 1, 2010 at 9:15 AM

Congratulations!  Your story sounds so familiar it hurts.  Just in the last week I have started myself on my path and I hope in a year I can be making a similar post!!  

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