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Just a few thoughts from a tired mind

I am starting to hate my life.  I use to like my job, but now I am starting to hate the effects it is having on my family, or at least how I view my family. I am not the mom I use to be.  I used to be able to have fun with my kids and my husband, now everything is a chore. I am no longer the happy person I use to be, and my house is getting dirtier by the minute. We need the money but I am wondering if it is all worth it. I need to find a better job with better hours. I tried talking to my husband, but he just doesn't understand.  I tried telling him it is like working a day job (7:30 to 4:30) then starting your night job (5pm-2am)  and even then he still does not get it. I am so burning out. I love my family, but this life, is just getting so hard that I have moments that I just want to walk away and forget everything. And when I say everything I do mean everything, kids, husband, house, and everyone I have ever met. And these moments are getting longer and coming more frequently.  I am scared, and so alone.

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mylil...
Nov. 30, 2010 at 10:45 AM

I am so very sorry. I have been feeling like this too. Lately it seems like my thoughts will not go away either.  I know how bad it hurts, but your not alone.  Some how, some way, things will get better. I hate hearing that but I know deep down it's true. But at the same time I just want to leave it all behind me. I am sorry I couldn't offer you any real advice. But your not alone & I hope that helps a little. If you ever want to talk about anything message me. I feel like we have alot in common.  Hang in there!!

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