I have a total new found respect for all of you mothers that are working outside the home and have young children at home to care for. I have to say, you all are AMAZING.
For the past month I have started a part time job outside the home to help out with family expenses and holidays and birthdays. It is the first time that I've had to work outside the home since before my 3 (almost 4) year old was born. I have done home daycare, Tastefully Simple consulting, and I was a Massage Practioner. However, all of those things I could do for the most part at my home and never spent more than a couple of hours a week away from home with those jobs.
Now I've ventured into retail to help out. I only wanted a part time job with a couple of hours a week to make up for the money I was no longer making when the people I was babysitting for could no longer afford me. Well, holiday season in retail, there is no such thing as part time hours, I've come to find out. I had one week of partime hours and now I'm working 38 hours a week. Which money wise, I'm content. It is a great help.
But now I'm having a very hard time handling any stressers at home these days. My SO did great with starting to help out around the house with minor things like the dishes and straightening up the living room and taking care of our daughter. Now, it's been over a month since I've started working and he has totally started slacking in all fields. He is still taking care of Autumn but now he isn't making sure she is going to bed at a decent time. When I came home on Saturday night at midnight Autumn was wide awake but very cranky. Then he is making dinner but not cleaning any of the dishes for the past two days of working.
I know I'm bitching! He is also working over eight hour days some of the days I'm working. So I try not to expect too much out of him on those days. But it is really really starting to get to me. He wouldn't pick up the slack (like he said he was going to do when I got all depressed about losing my babysitting job). So I go out and get myself a job to help him and do what he said he was going to do. Now he can't even rinse off some dishes or run a vaccum, that takes like 5 minutes???!?!!?
I'm starting to get a little too snappy with my daughter from all the stress I am feeling. I accidently made her cry from yelling about the mess. I wasn't yelling at her but she was in the room and it upset her to hear me talk like that. I don't know how much longer I will be able to deal with the house just getting messier and messier and not having the energy or time to catch up and do everything else I'm suppose to do during the day.