strange experience. kinda sad to read.

[nuklear]

we wrecked our car recently, so it looks like a piece of crap..

we were coming out of the dollar general when it happened:

i handed my father a $20 and asked my father, who was with us, to go back inside and get this little kitchen set for my 3 year old that i knew she would love for christmas, and left with the kids, and loaded them in the car. then this woman approached me and asked if she could talk to me. i got my 3 year old buckled in and started to close the door because i wasn't sure what was going to be said.

she went on to tell me that my kids are adorable, and that my little girl was especially cute since she would play with the toys and never ask for them, pick up things, look at them, and put them back. that i was blessed and i said that i knew. so i left dani's door open just a little so she could hear that she is a good girl and that other people think so too.

then this woman asked me to not be offended, but offered to buy my children toys. i laughed as i looked at our situation, arriving at dollar general with a beat up car, my hair a mess.. at this point, i'm thinking that she thought we were needy, when in reality, we're far from it. we are blessed enough to be donating things this year, so i told her that they have enough toys and that we're fine, but thanked her for her offer.... thats when she started bawling and in between her sobs, told me that there was more to this than i realize. that's when it hit me. 2+2 . she just lost a grandchild.

i tried to tell her that she doesn't even know us, that i'm sorry, and thankful. i thought maybe if she wanted to spend time with a grandchild, that she, my daughter and i would go inside and buy a toy all together so that she could spend some time with danielle and relive whatever she had just lost. she declined and looked like she just wanted to get out of there. not to relive it. i'm not 100% sure what was going on in her head, but this is what i picked up.

i tried to decline again, it didn't feel right to accept this. but she wasn't having it. she handed me a 20 and walked away. i just stood there in shock and tears and what just happened.

i held to her wishes, i told dani to pick out a toy. she picked out one, it was only $10, so she also picked out a candy. with the rest i told her to pick out another toy so we could donate it to the toy drive they were holding there. and donated the rest of the change to the "take a penny, leave a penny" it felt strange to keep any of that money. it didn't feel right.

but it was a strange experience, and my biggest regret was not knowing her name. in my shock i forgot to ask. i don't remember giving her mine either. i just wish i could contact her to let her know i kept my promise.

[knagsmom]

Dec. 20, 2010 at 3:10 PM

this story just goes to show u that their r people who r angels