She is already 1 year old

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Im really emotional recently but I think is for all the things that I've been thru this year, Gianna is already a year old, and in her birthday party as expected that sperm donor she has as a father didn't show up, I don't know why I even care to send him the invitation..aarrrghhh and when they were singing the happy birthday, I couldn`t hold myself and I cried, I dont know if people noticed it, but instead of being happy I was kind of sad.

I never thought that my life would be like this, being a single mom,an abandoned mom, because I've friends that they are single mom but the father of the child is ther for their child, and in my case no, being a single mom is not bad, is hard thou, but I never thought that this man that I've known for 11 years would do something like this to me, or his child, I love my daughter, she is the most precious thing that God gave me but gosh why is she going to grow up without a father, what am I gonna tell her when she goes to pre-school and she start asking about daddy, I have so many doubts and Im so scared about the future and I have no idea why.

I'm working hard, really hard to give her the best that I can, but I'm afraid that for being working and thinking about the money I fail as a mother and she wouldn`t love me, what if she blames me for what happened with his father? Im really sad and I don`t seem to get comforted with anything.