Okay so I just needed a place to share this.
My holiday season is going horribly wrong this year. First on Thanksgiving Day my Grandmother passed away. Nine days later on December third we received a phone call informing us that my cousin woke up and found her three week old son not breathing and he had passed away from SIDS. On December nineteenth only one day after celebrating her twenty sixth birthday that same cousin had a stroke and is still in the hospital. Plus it has only been a year since my 2 uncles and my best friend passed away. Add to all this the fact that my three year old son doesn't understand so I have to act cheerful and its all weighing on me heavily.