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My Corner of Craziness!

Not even sure where to start with this one.  I will try to brief and not bore.  10 years ago I lost my beautiful mother to colon cancer.  It has forever changed our lives.  looking back and reflecting on how things have changed and how far my family has come its incredible, we have been able to stay a family, strong and united.  Well Christmas day 2010 now comes and changes my life again.  My brothers wife announces that she has breast cancer.  She had a lump in her breast and what they thought would be a cyst needed to be biopsed.  The results came back as cancer.  She had a MRI done this past WED and will have the test results next week.  I know she will be having surgery to have the lump removed but not sure when.   While my SIL seems to be very postive about this and is acting like all is going to be okay, my brother is fallling apart.  I dont know how to help him.  I think he thinks of my mom all over again.  How hard my mom fought, how hard we prayed, how we BELIEVED what the doctors were telling us, how we tried to do everything to make her happy and live.  just to watch her suffer with pain, throwing up, losing self esteem, not being able to walk, needing help with every little thing she did, and trying to keep what little dignatity she had.   

Right now I cant even wrap my head around all this.  I love them both very much and would do anything to help.  My nephew is only 7 and my neice is only 5.  They have been married for 10 years and trying to build this wonderful life.  I love my nephew and niece with allmy heart and would do anything to take away their pain.

I am trying to be brave for my brother and be the backbone he needs.  I will continue to do this for them.  Inside I am crying and trying to hold it all together.I will put on my brave face and continue my prayers and lighting my candles and asking God to Please, please, comfort them and give them the strengh they are going to need.

I am sorry I all over with this. I am so emotional and worried.  If you would all please, pray for my family, it would greatly be appreicated by my family.

thank you 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

~tracy

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Apple1
Dec. 30, 2010 at 11:15 PM


Tracy,

You and your family are in my prayers.  I'm so sorry to hear you all are going through this...so very hard.  My grandmother had breast cancer twice, and beat it both times, it was so hard to see her go through all of this, but she made it.   I'm sending you lots of love, hugs and prayers for a speedy recovery!!  xoxo

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Presi...
Dec. 30, 2010 at 11:27 PM

So sorry Tracy.  Your whole family will be in my prayers.  Big ((((((HUGS)))))) to you all. 

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cindi...
Dec. 31, 2010 at 5:14 AM

Oh Tracy I am so sorry your family is going thru this! Big Hugs and lots of prayers for them and you!!!!

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Kelly...
Dec. 31, 2010 at 8:30 AM

 I am so sorry that your family is going through this.  I am sending prayers.  St. Jude is my special and powerful Saint.  Many prayers your way....

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daisyb
Dec. 31, 2010 at 1:03 PM

 

  I am So Sorry that your Family is going through all of this- I will be saying Many Prayers for all of you!

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ilove...
Dec. 31, 2010 at 1:24 PM

Thank you all ladies!!!! I dont know what I would do without this site!!!! You all dont know what it means to have you in my life, even if its through the computer!!!  thanks soooooooo much!!!!!!!

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Vinta...
Dec. 31, 2010 at 3:39 PM

Prayers said!

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cjcow...
Jan. 1, 2011 at 8:29 AM

you are in our family's prayers and thoughts...sending positive energy!

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