Guilt

[cornflakegirl3]

I have never been one of those moms whose felt guilty about leaving her children for a little while.  In fact I am always telling woman that it is okay to go out for a little while and have me time.  It is good for you and I believe it makes your relationship with your children that much better.  Besides my mother always told me it was good to take a break.

When Jared and Devon were little I worked full time and went to school, so I didn't take a lot of me time. After Jordan was born I stayed home and I love it.  I did find in the beginning it was hard because I was by myself all day with 3 kids under the age of 5.  I remember going to a restaurant once and the waitress asking me if anyone else was with me.  I was like "No it is just the four us." I think she thought I was crazy and at times I thought I was crazy, I missed adult conversation.  After 10 months of being home the boys started school and I made friends and they have been life savers. 

Back to my point guilt, something I never really felt until now.  Since Jordan has been sick I have not been able to relax.  I feel guilty if I am going out with my friends and worried because what if something happens.  I used to love going out and just hanging with my friends, either having a few drinks and dancing or going for coffee and breakfast, or even just shopping for an hour or so.  There have been a couple of times I have let loose a little. 

Now that she has gotten sick again, and even though she is doing better now, I am still having a hard time.  The guilt of not being there and leaving everything to Jeff is killing me.   

So remember to live every moment to the fullest and don't ever feel guilty about me time! I am looking forward to starting to spend time with friends again, either that or I am going to become the crazy lady who never leaves her house and they are going to have to come drag me out.  Either way I know I need it because always walking on egg shells is not good for anyone. 

[KISSES37]

Feb. 14, 2011 at 9:39 AM

 

 

 

 

I agree with that, when my dd was first diagnosed with diabetes ten years ago, I didnt think I would be able to let her out of my sight. But learning what not to do from my mother-in -law,( dh has diabetes also), although she had a chronic disease, I would not treat her any different then if she had no issues.(dh was very much babied when he was a kid).

 

[amylu82]

Feb. 25, 2011 at 10:20 AM I totally understand this. It actually made me feel like its not just me. So i hope you get some sort of out and i wish you and you family the best. And thank you or posting