friends

[ilovedogs1967]

well, here I am at age 43, very close to 44 actually, and I find myself once again living a lonely life with very few friends. I do not feel like i have many folks that I can count on if I had a flat tire, or a head cold and needed some juice, or anything. I have one neighbor that helps me out from time to time and I have one friend that I see almost weekly for lunch but she lives 40 minutes away.

My best friends are my dog, my husband and my kids. I am not close to my parents, brother, oldest daughter, and I can't stand my inlaws (I seriously tried for years to be friends with them, but just found out that it takes too much energy)...I start these acquaintance relationships with women and find that they either never call me back for a second lunch or I do all the work in the relationship.

Even my own mom never calls me, she just waits for me to call her and she has free long distance. oh well....

I keep praying to my Jesus for some good Christian friends, but I just can't seem to find them. My one local friend that I mentioned is not a believer and it is difficult sometimes to be around her when she doesn't believe like I do....I do enjoy her in other ways.

well, that's my vent...and I am not miserable. I find joy in penpalling, facebook, and reconnecting with school mates from the past...I just don't get a lot of face time with other women..maybe that's modern life??