three years free from David....

In the past year I have learned to live again.... and to trust... well... somewhat... as much as I am able anyways. I have gotten married last May, moved again... to NC... and started working again after being unable to for 2 years.

However, a shadow remains... it's always there... moving around... just out of reach... wondering who is going to take something more from me... when will it happen... do I prepare myself for the inevitable... destruction?

Have I grown enough that I will never allow myself to be placed in that situation again. One where my life is on the line> Will I give in? Fight? Flee?

Today marks the 3rd year of one of the worst days of my life, and also the day where I realised I was worth more then to lay down and die.... as did the baby I was carrying...

Even though she is not yet 3, Hannah is a Survivior too....

Now that work is over, and the kids are almost in bed.... it's time to quiet my brain... and stop wondering if there will ever be a year that Feb. 17th will just be another day....


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Feb. 18, 2011 at 10:27 PM

I hope it will get easier...I'm glad you got out of that relationship and I hope the new one will serve to show you that life is good...can be good and stay that way! Have you ever done counseling or attended any abuse survivor clinics or support meetings? If not, I think it might help you to feel more secure. You obviously have come a LONG WAY over the last 3 years...give yourself credit for ALL you have done to move forward!! Good Luck!

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