I am really struggling right now and don't know what to do :(

[sweet_bumblbee]

I am so emotional right now. I have 5 wonderful kids, my youngest being 7 months. My two oldest are girls and the three youngest are boys. They were all c sections. My husband is great provider, and I am a Stay at home mom. I am fighting with myself, I really want another baby, I have baby fever bad. I am fighting it big time for several reasons..........1. I just had my beautiful son he is only 7 months and a awesome baby. 2) It will be my 6th c section and I am scared to death, even though my 5th section was easy and quick and no complications through any of my pregnancies or the surgeries. My heart wants another baby. I want this feeling to go away. Of course it doesn't help seeing my friends get their Bfp's I am so excited for them. I guess I am a rare kind, I love being pregnant all the way to the end. 

I really need encouragement and support. My husband loves me being pregnant and our babies, but he is also worried about what it is doing to me to have the c sections. I am in tears and want these feelings gone. I am happy with my 5, I guess I just love being a mom and a caretaker.