I decided on it!

[jwhite83]

So, I've decided to homeschool my 6yr old. She extremely brightand just lights up a room when she enters. I am very fortunate to have a kid like her. I'm ashamed to say that  I havent always felt this way. I used to see motherhood as a burden. I had things that I wanted to do with my life. I wanted to be a general agent with the company I had been working with for three years now, running my own small business. I actually got the promotion and pay increase and I was more concerned with my goals and ambitions.

I then later realized that commision work isnt sound enough and I turned to the job hunt. This brought about a new set of challenges. I was so upset that I couldnt find a job that I obseessed over it all the time. I spent hours doing job searches modifiying resumes to fit the description, all while my children were in the background I used to say man if I didnt have three children I would be able to do this or that. If only I had waited on children, but those thoughts and phrases were only keeping me stuck in one place. They kept me idle in my thoughts and actions. I never accomplished anything.

 I'm just thankful to God for opening up my eyes to mothehood and allowing me to see it in another way. I'm a mom and if I'm gonna be that I need to do it right. Not half-heartedly.  Motherhood is ministry. We are ministering to our little ones day and night. They are watching and learning about God through our actions, through our attitudes, and our dealings with them. By making myself available to my children I am serving God. I'm sacrificing myself and ambitions for others. Those others just happen to be my overy own children! His word says put others needs before your own. I wasnt doing this.

But I am ready and willing oto put God first in my life and to put others (my children) first as well. I want to have their interest at heart. There needs are to be met through me as their mother by the grace of God and strength that he gives me. Along with the confidence, the patience, and faith that I will need, as well

When my child asked me a question and I didnt answer because I was too deep in thought about what my plans were for the week. I wasnt putting them first. When my children were wanting me to play with them and I was too busy setting up my advertising materials, I was putting them first.

"Don’t be concerned for your own good but for the good of others" Philippians 2:4 

"But my God shall supply all your need according to His riches and glory by Jesus" Phillipians 4:19

These are my two favorite scriptures that speak to me in this season of my life.

[sgr123]

Mar. 9, 2011 at 12:44 PM

I know you have been asking a lot of questions about homeschooling (we share a group).  Glad to see you're taking the plunge.  Congrats to you and your family!!!

[jwhite83]

Apr. 13, 2011 at 11:41 PM

Thank you! I'm glad I did too. We are heading in to week 4 of homeschool!!! Its been an interesting ride so far

(Original Poster)