So, turns out that 2 of my close friends are pregnant as well. They are both about 6 - 7 weeks. One friend's life just got turned upside down when her previous OB just told her that he would not take her on as a client for this pregnancy! I was shocked! This was the "wonder OB" that does VBACs in Alaska and helped her to have a successful VBAC last summer. Both of us are at a complete loss and utterly confused. And to make matters worse, this was the OB I was thinking about using for my upcoming birth so it makes me wonder what he deal is. So, it looks like we will both be on the hunt for a good care provider since we are both VBAC ladies.
Now my other friend is in the throws of horrible morning sickness. Not just morning but afternoon, evening and night sickness. I, on the other hand am one of the lucky 20% of women that don't get morning sickness (cautiously knocking on wood as I type this!). I feel so bad that I can feel so good while other suffer. I'd trade a day of sick so she could get through one day with out puking.
Tomorrow I'll grab a Digital Pregnancy test. I'm ready to see some definitive results from a pregnancy test. My IP's are cautiously optimistic at this point. I don't blame them. After all the heartbreak and disappointment they have been through I'm sure I would feel the same way. I'm my heart, I know I am pregnant but being a surrogate, and trying to create a baby for others, there seems to be 10x time amount of pressure to "preform" then there is when you are just Trying to Conceive on your own. So, there is always a shadow of apprehension until there is an ultrasound to see a baby, then we wait some more, until we feel movement and again, until a baby is born. It's hard, really hard when there is a whole 'nother family that is hinging all their hopes and dreams on you.