I'm thinking about starting a blog.  I've never done it before but I love writing so I think I'll give it a shot.  I have a lot going on in my life right now and I think it would be cathartic.  It's kind of hard to get started, I'm a little rusty.  I used to write all the time.  It seemed natural to me.  Maybe I can even make a living from it.  Then I can stay home and be a hermit just like I always dreamed! 

   It's 2:33 am and I should be going to bed soon, but I can't.  My mind is still in overdrive.  It takes me a long time to wind down.  In fact, I just finished folding the last load of laundry for the day.  Doing laundry for six people can be quite overwhelming!  Anyway, today was a pretty good day.       

   Jamie let me sleep until 1:00 in the afternoon.  I was up for awhile with the baby in the morning and I went back to sleep when she did.  I hate when I do that because I feel like crap when I wake up.  My back was killing me though, so I laid back down for a few hours.  I could hear the kids running around downstairs and up and down the steps the entire time, so it wasn't a sound sleep, but sleep nonetheless.  I have such a wonderful husband that lets me sleep in after he has worked evening shift all week.  I'm glad he spent some time with them this morning.  They hardly see him during the week since they are asleep before he comes home.  It's rough on them. 

   I've had autism on the brain lately because my son was recently diagnosed PDD-NOS.  I can't say that I am surprised.  I've had my suspicions for some time now.  He has been in Early Intervention since he was two.  Draven didn't speak until he was almost two.  I would talk to him and it didn't seem like he understood what I was saying.  He would babble, but not speak any words.  At 2 1/2 he said about 5 words and would just scream in frustration when he needed something.  I took him to Children's and had his hearing tested.  They said it was "adequate for speech."  I also had him evaluated for speech disorder and it was determined that he had moderate receptive and expressive language delays.  We began speech therapy through EI.  His speech therapist, Amy, was awesome.  She taught Draven some sign language, which helped him realize that he needed to communicate his needs to us instead of crying. 

   When Draven turned 3, he began attending preschool at Midwestern Intermediate Unit.  He also said "Mom" for the first time.  Up until that point he called me "Nay".  Of course he called just about everything "Nay".  Then, he added to it and everywhere we went he would point to everything and say "Nay-go".  You can imagine what word that sounded like!  I was so afraid that people were going to think we taught him the "N" word.  At any rate, the IU was fabulous!  Draven loved riding the bus and slowly started speaking more.  I also worked with him at home.

  Now Draven is attending Head Start, and a lot of the "behaviors" that he had when he was younger are still evident.  He still lines things up, and is very rigid on many things.  Everything has to be "the perfect size."  His speech is a little disordered to me.  For example, if you ask him "Guess who is coming over today?" he will respond with "What?"  Also, there are many times when he will only let me call him a certain name of a character or animal.  Sometimes he is Bruce Banner, sometimes he is Tony Stark.  Sometimes he is either the kitty, puppy, piggy, doink piggy (there is a difference), baby dragon, baby, or geeky (this is the newest one.)  he is very rigid about me not calling him Draven or DJ.  He'll say "Noooo I'm Tony!"

   Ok, it is now 3:20 am.  I have to get to bed~  Shelby has a friend over and Jamie and I are getting up in the morning to make everyone breakfast.  I'm going to try to write a little each day.  I doubt anyone will read this, but it's all good.  This is more for me than anything.  I will probably be speaking in front of an autism support group soon and I am TERRIFIED.  I seriously have a huge social phobia.  I can't talk to people one-on-one let alone a whole group.  I am trying to put my thoughts together here and figure out what I am going to say.

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Apr. 5, 2011 at 11:06 AM

my blog really helped me work through stuff.  just writing it for myself was enough. 

i say go for it 


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