Its been 3 years since my dad passed away and I woke up really emotional! As I do every year on this day for the last 3 years!

But today, I'm am even beyond emotional because of the pregnancy, I believe. But I also realized that my kids will never meet my dad. Never know who their real grandfather was. My dad only knew my son the 1st 4 months of his life! I sometimes get mad at my dad because if he would of given up alcohol and his stupid drugs he probably still be here! A week before my daughter was born, I had a dream that he came to see how we were. But when I tried to tell him to meet his granddaughter he left. It has been soooo hard for me because I have his only grandkids, yet he never really met them! I wish I was closer to him instead of fighting with him 24/7. The last 4 months of his life, we got close because of my son & yet, I feel like if I didn't really know him!

Ugh, sorry ladies for ranting... I just can't really talk to my siblings nor mom about it cause they tend to not think about him..

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Apr. 30, 2011 at 12:44 PM

Awww Honey I am so sorry... I can't imagine ur pain.. (((HUGGS)))

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