Qwietpleez's Journal

Musings, rantings and dreams . . .

 

I used to think love was simply love. I'd felt it and I'd given it. I thought I knew all there was to know. Then a special love came into my life, I'd never felt anything like it before.

There are many people in my life I love with all my heart. There is one among them however, who has impacted my life in a way I never expected. I knew the moment I met him there was something special, something different about him. I could see it when our eyes met for the first time. I could feel it when I held his hand in mine.

I thought I knew what happiness was before he came into my life but the happiness he brought me far surpassed any joy I had ever felt. I thought I knew what love was but he showed me love like I'd never known. He changed me. I can't remember now what life was like before him. I cannot imagine what life would be like without him.

He showed me things about myself I would have never known. He showed me I was stronger than I thought I was. He showed me I could love more than I ever thought I could. He taught me to look at the world in a way I had never looked before. I'd been blind before he opened my eyes. Every moment I spent with him was a new beginning.

He rescued me and for that he is my hero. When we first met I thought I would be the one to mold his life, to teach him and give to him all he would need. I had no idea he would be the one to teach me the things that mattered most in life. I am more in awe of him today than I was the day they first placed him in my arms and his tiny little hand wrapped around my finger and stole my heart.

My son is autistic, he truly is my hero. I have watched him grow and struggle and overcome since the day he was born. There were times I wished more for him but now I know I was the one who needed more and he gave it to me. He showed me a world many will never see. If I have done anything of worth in this life, it was because of God looked down upon the earth and chose me to care for one of his special angels. Me, chosen by God himself, I cannot think of a greater honor or privilege.

My very special love for my very special child is a blessing and a gift. One I am thankful for each and every moment of my day. The most amazing thing of all, this child loves me. Some said he would never know love, he does. I see it in his eyes, I feel it in his embrace and I hear it in his voice. It is the purest of love . . . it is a special love.

 

 

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Tired...
Apr. 4, 2011 at 4:11 PM

All our children are special in their own way.  My nephew is Autistic and yes it is so special watching him accomplish things that we expect a non autistic child could do.  My sister has two children she loves them both, but her autistic son does bring more light to her eyes when he can succeed in something.

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ksbon...
Apr. 4, 2011 at 4:24 PM

Apr. 4, 2011 at 3:11 PM

"I wouldn't call a child 'special'.... that makes it sound like they are weird or different, it isolates them in some other class...............  I totally disagree with saying that.  like, 'Hi, This is my 'Special' Child'.... ---  your kid will really resent that."

You are only looking at the disability.  The poster is looking at the ability-HUGE difference.

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goatmom4
Apr. 4, 2011 at 5:52 PM

AWESOME   I am doubley blessed

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mcque...
Apr. 4, 2011 at 6:46 PM

What a great post, my son only has spd but i feel the same, never could put it in words like you have. HUgs

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cindi...
Apr. 4, 2011 at 7:14 PM

bow down

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autismom
Apr. 4, 2011 at 7:40 PM

I'm so glad you are writing again Crystal. I really missed it. You have a wonderful gift with words. Thank you for sharing and expressing what we mothers of SPECIAL children feel. Beautiful!!

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123kat
Apr. 4, 2011 at 7:58 PM

Crystal, your writing has always moved me, but this one is SPECIAL!!!  It brought me to tears!  Absolutely beautiful!

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Darli...
Apr. 4, 2011 at 8:13 PM Well written!

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SLGIRL
Apr. 4, 2011 at 8:36 PM

Well said.  That is exactly how I feel about my daughter.  Thank you for sharing.

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momca...
Apr. 4, 2011 at 8:40 PM

That was wonderful!  : )

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