Today marks the two year anniversary of my dad's death and I am missing him so much. I have been trying so hard to move on with my life because I know he isn't coming back but days like today the pain feels just as raw as it did when I found out. Some people in my life say I should be over it by now but how do I get over losing the man that loved me because he chose to not because his blood ran through my veins? He loved and cared for me when my own father decided I wasn't as important as his other daughters and loved my son like there was no tomorrow. I don't know how to get over it or not cry. It isn't like I want to feel this pain. I didn't grieve like I should have when he passed away because I felt it wasn't my place because he wasn't my "real" dad, he was my sisters and I shouldn't hurt this bad. Now two years later I still hurt and haven't fully grieved and I really don't know how to. Feeling this pain is almost dibilitating and that is hard to deal with. I'm not sure this is making any sense but if you read it thank you.crying 

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anich...
Apr. 5, 2011 at 4:36 PM

Don't feel bad for the way you feel, you have every right to. I think you need to talk with someone that can help you deal with your feelings, you need to be able to sort through them, so that you can move on. If you can't find that in a family member or friend then do yourself a favor and get counseling. there's no shame in that, you just need to go through the emotions regardless of how long it's been. I honestly believe you will feel so much better! Good luck sweetie, I'm sorry this is still so hard on you.

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rlw
Apr. 5, 2011 at 5:19 PM

anichols1 thank you, I am currently in counseling and hope that eventually it will lead to my being ok with all of this. Thanks for your kind words

 

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