And I will not be silent about it. If I sit here and and be quiet about it, then my rapist wins. Silence is the enemy now. According to Campbell (2008), out of every 100 cases of rape cases, only 33 are referred to prosecutors and 16 are charged. However, out of those 16, only 12 are successfully convicted with only 7 of them serving prison time. There are many reasons for this. First, people are silent on the issue. Tha majority of rapes go unreported. Why? Well there are many reasons. Medical professionals and police sometimes revictimize the victim. Most of us have probably heard stories of this. This fear leads people not to report it. Most also think that it makes no difference. And who can really argue against that given the statistics? There is also the issue of shock, shame, fear and guilt many feel.

I was raped 6 years ago. It was by a guy I thought was my friend. I graduated high school with him and known him my entire high school career. I was shocked at first. I didn't report it for a day or so because I was scared and ashamed. I thought it was my fault. I felt guilty. But I did report it. Nothing happened though. It was my word verses his and apparently his word means more. Nothing will ever happen to him unless he happens to confess to me online. And no he hasn't stopped raping women. Many I know also know him and have stated that he has not changed. Quite honestly, the sexual offender list doesn't scare me anymore. What scares me are the people that aren't on the list that should be. You don't know who they are.

I also am not completely healed. It is easier to talk about this online but it is still hard in real life. I see a therapist once a month. We are doing exposure therapy since it has the best record for helping sexual assault victims. I also am on an antidepressant just to function.

So why am I telling you all this? Because it is April. April is sexual assault awareness month. This awful crime needs to be stopped. So we all need to speak up against it.

If you are a victim or survivor who needs help, RAINN is here to help. Their toll free hotline number is 1-800-656-HOPE(4673). They also have an online website... And finally if you are in the military, here is the website specifically for you,


Campbell, R. (2008). The psychological impact of rape victims. American Psychologist, 63(8), 702-717. doi: 10.1037/0003-066X.63.8.702

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Apr. 8, 2011 at 5:35 PM

Thanks for posting, I was also raped and I put his ass away for a long time and you know what? when he got out, he came looking for me. Never found me but hes back in jail again so I am safe.

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Apr. 8, 2011 at 10:46 PM

I'm sorry.  I wish you nothing but the best.

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Apr. 8, 2011 at 11:00 PM

I am very sorry this happened to you, but you are brave posting.  There are many women who don't post because they are treated like the perpatrator and not the victim.  So why put yourself through a mental rape too?  I know that most of us had heard this before, but it needs to be said.  As long as we are silent, they keep raping others.  It's hard, but speak up and get some help. 25 years is a long time, so in the long run, it was worth it. 

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Apr. 9, 2011 at 1:16 AM

Thank you for sharing this and providing the link. I'm sorry this happened to you.

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Apr. 9, 2011 at 1:25 AM

Thank you for sharing. I was too by a family member and noone believed me.

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Apr. 9, 2011 at 2:18 AM

There are 2 sites I have found helpful as I continue to heal from my own experiences: pandora's aquarium and after silence There is support & understanding at both sites.

Peace & healing,


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Apr. 9, 2011 at 9:57 AM

i was raped too when i was 17. he went to jail for 6 months because had to wait for court. he didn't get convicted because my mom lied and stuck up for him. he was her boyfriend. i wasn't going to stay silent. because he would have kept doing it. i'm sorry this happened to you too. i'm glad you aren't staying silent. maybe this will help other women stick up for themselves.

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Apr. 9, 2011 at 11:37 AM

Thank you for sharing this - you are right, it is important that this is talked about to raise awareness. I hope that you continue in your recovery.

And weiyi - do you even read journal posts before touting for buisness?  Cafemom - where is the report button for journal replies? 

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Apr. 9, 2011 at 11:37 AM

Thank you for posting this. I was never raped but I have been molested. Sex crimes happen every day and yet there are hundreds of sex offenders out on the streets that keep doing it because the law doesn't give a crap. My molester is dead so I know he isn't doing something to someone else. 

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Apr. 9, 2011 at 1:03 PM

I am not silent about my rape or my childhood sexual abuse, I know, like you, that being silent gives them more power and talking helps me to continue to heal! Hugs! You are amazing!

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