I said good bye to my domestic violence group here cuz Im giving up. there isno way out for me, I havent been able to stop crying since a made the descition and sent him a message letting him know that he could do anything to me cuz I was done, I will not fight any more...

I feel so alone right now, so alone.

Im afraid

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tpayne87
Apr. 8, 2011 at 11:21 PM

From reading this post I think you should maybe consider to talk to someone else. Is the kids in any danger at all? If so, I think it's your best interest to leave with your kids in toll. I know it sounds easier said than done But you have to think about them & their future and them seeing you going threw this is hurting them at every angle. I wish you could go to your nearest emergency center or some sort & try to get out. Dont beat yourself up more one just sitting around for this man to be your punching bag. That isnt love mamas.. 

If you want to talk more, your more than welcome to PM me...

Im sorry, your going to get threw this. God would never put you in a situation he knew you couldn't handle.

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Lb128f
Apr. 9, 2011 at 12:31 AM

Maybe the group on here wasn't what you needed to really get help locally...you don' have to give up! Please try calling...

http://www.thehotline.org/

 

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anich...
Apr. 9, 2011 at 6:50 AM

DONT throw in the towel just yet!  You have it in you to keep going and end the abuse, maybe you were talking to the wrong people. I never thought my sister would leave her physically and mentally abusive husband but she finally did it! I thought he would "KILL" her or she would him but she FINALLY had enough! You have it in you too, you have to do what it takes even if it's one little step at a time! tpayne87 said it right, if you got kids involved, you owe it to them as well as yourself to get out of this situation, there are ways! I would be happy to talk to you, please pm me! I know there's hope for you!

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Sweet...
Apr. 9, 2011 at 7:25 AM

Never give up because if you do you're giving up on your children and they need their mom.

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FDNYwife
Apr. 9, 2011 at 8:02 AM

Do not give up.  If you give up he will either end up eventually turning to the children OR your children will learn to be abused/abusers when they grow up - thinking its normal.  That was the reason I eventually left in 2002!  Someone on line told me if I dont leave my son will end up treating women the same way and I just couldnt handle that.  I looked in the yellow pages and called a womans abuse line and they came and got me with police escort while he was at work.

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FDNYwife
Apr. 9, 2011 at 8:07 AM

when i read this other journal of yours it makes me want to come get you myself :(

"its so hard to love him when all he does is make me feel like nothing, when I see the way he treats my son. lately I feel hate. but i cant leave, why am I such a coward,,, may be he is right, I am nothing... "

You are not nothing and you know that! Do whats right for your son :(

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moret...
Apr. 9, 2011 at 8:17 AM

Oh my word -- no no no. PLEASE fight for yourself. Fight for your child(ren). Call a local DV hotline, a women's shelter, call the police when he leaves, People WILL help you. Don't give up - if you give up he has won and he doesn't deserve that. He doesn't deserve you and you don't deserve this!!! You are better than this... just keep fighting and telling yourself you CAN get out!!! I will pray for you. Please, please don't do this.

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momma...
Apr. 9, 2011 at 8:29 AM find another support group & get out. no one deserves to live like that. get out. for you & your kids safety.

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xavie...
Apr. 9, 2011 at 10:02 AM

don't give up. you have children who need you. there are places that can help you. i don't know where you live but almost every town has shelters for abuse victims.

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.kk.
Apr. 9, 2011 at 10:07 AM

Please don't give up. You and your children are worth fighting for. We want you here....alive, on this earth. Please don't give up!

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