for the last week or so I have been having a gut feeling that I'm not pregnant anymore ! right now i am supposed to be 11 weeks , and a few days . This whole pregnancy has been so stressful . I was surprised to see a heartbeat at 6 weeks , then at 8 weeks I had the a little bit of blood . Doctor sent me for another ultrasound , and there was my little bean , heart just beating away . That brings use to just a few days ago . On Monday i had a doctor appointment , they looked for a heartbeat , but couldn't find it . The doctor said it was a little early for the Doppler to hear it . He then tells me the results of the ultrasound ... I have a small > 1mm area that is bleeding , and my cervix seems to be a little small/thin . of course this leaves me stressed all week , but i try to stay positive . Last night , i had more blood , not a ton just some on the toilet paper . but 100 x more then the first time . I thought for sure I must be at the beginning of a miscarriage ! I end up calling my mom and just crying ... my hubby was so supportive <3 and I cried my self to sleep in his arms . I just got up this morning and there isn't any more blood , but I'm pretty sure of what is going on. to top it off a good friend text-ed me during all this to say she is pregnant ,,,, really .... talk about rubbing dirt into a wound ... I'm not sure how all this will end , although i have a bad feeling about it . My biggest complaint is WHY ? what am I supposed to be learning from this , and what would the point be in going thru ALL this if in the  end  I just  end up miscarrying ... wow now to put on a happy face and try to go about my day ... 

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Apr. 18, 2011 at 11:05 AM

  just stay positive and know all things happen for a reason,i know those words suck but i believe its true.i misscarried my second baby at 13 weeks, i saw a heart beat at   8 weeks.when i went in for another solagram there was no heart beat. i was devestated .i had to have a d&c it was the most awful thing i ever had to do.i was depressed and wondering why too.but 7 months later i got pregnant with my 2 year old daughter.had a healthy pregnancy and delivery.Shes soo special and even know i lost that baby who i never met,if that was ment to be i wouldent have her. hang in there... i wish you luck

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Apr. 18, 2011 at 1:56 PM

I'm sorry....maybe you could check in with the Doc again. I hope all goes well!

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Apr. 18, 2011 at 3:44 PM

It's important to stay as positive as you can and to get as much rest as possible.  I know it's hard not to be stressed out, and hard not to be angry.  It's important that you realize that even horrible events do happen for a reason greater than what we can comprehend.  Your life has been mapped out for you long before you were even born, and there is a reason for the will of God. I'll keep you in my prayers.

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Apr. 20, 2011 at 9:06 AM

went to the er yesterday for bleeding , I'm so glad I did .I got so many questioned answered ... the baby is fine and my numbers are great .. They told me that my placenta is on the front wall (anterior) and there is a small placenta abrob. This is where the bleeding is coming from , but the baby is happy and all of this is not a problom... I am soooooo happy .

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