OK I understand people go through a lot in life. I understand about struggles challeges and what else not. I even understand bad luck. I just don't understand how some poeple just have more then their share of crap.
I have a lot of things to deal with in my life. I have lost siblings, loved ones and of course pets. I have money problems relationship problems inlaw problems and family problems. I have dealt with divorce of my parents and new people in my parents lives. I have had issues in school and in life.
I am just so tired of it. My last problem have really taken a toll on me. I just can't seem to bounce back. I have been going through therapy and of course on antidepression meds. I am dealing with health problems for both my hubby and myself. I have no big help in my life. I have people coming up to me saying you have to be stronger, But when is it too much to handle. I feels as though I have the weight of the worlds on my shoulders. I am just so tired and sore all the time. My housework is suffering, I can't relax at night I am starting to have nightmares. I hate to go to sleep because there is just so much to do and not enough time or enegry. I can't ask my mom or sister for help because they just tell me it is not that big of deal. They are not the ones in my shoes.
I know it is close to Easter but with my bank account empty and us on disablity and fs the money only goes so far. We have enough to pay our bills and get things for the house only. I would love to be able to work and make extra money but I can't and either can my hubby.
I am done I just needed to vent before I had finally lost it.