A week or two before my son was born me and the father were talking and he sent me a picture of him. Now by this point I forgot what he looked liie cause it had been forever since I had seen him. The whole pregnancy I was focused on my baby being healthy and making sure housing was good he had clothes diapers and all tht jazz. So when he sent the pic I almost had a heart attack.

My whole life I have been into white guys. I have always picutred my honeymoon with a white guy...you know it was never a question so when I saw his picture I was freaked out cause it was like "omg it wasnt a dream I really did do that" I felt so scared that my kid would look like that. God blessed me with a healthy beautiful baby boy (Thank you God) and does not look like that "thing" of a father.

I was like totally shocked I slept with a black guy. Good thing my son came out white blonde hair and blue eyes and he is still light. I know I was not fully thinking when i was with his fahter. The liquor and other stuff had me blinded like a mofo. cause he is the shortest ugliest and dumbest thing around.

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Bearsjen
Apr. 24, 2011 at 5:41 PM

I am not sure what to say other than....I am glad you had a place to vent.

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Jazmi...
Apr. 24, 2011 at 11:53 PM

yeah sometimes I dont have a person to talk to so I use this or others places to just get whats on my mind out.

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