A time comes in your life when you finally get it ... when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out ENOUGH!!! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to keep going on with life. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your wake up call.

This is when you realize that you have been strong for to long. You finally realize that it is OK to finally break down and cry. But you have to get back up, dust your knees off and start living again. The world isn't going to end because you have a bad day or you get bad news. You have other people that rely solely on you and without you, they wouldn't know what to do. I've done a lot of soul searching while I've been on break from blogging, stuff that I needed to finally sit down and actually think about. And hopefully with this new sense of thinking, my life will be somewhat peaceful.  

Yes, I have a child with a disability. 

Yes, I can't get an answer from any of the Dr's we've seen. 

Yes, I know I'm not the only one that is going through this. 

Yes, I do feel all alone while I'm going through, even though I'm not alone. 

Without my family and few true friends I have I don't know what I would do or even what state of mind that I would be in. Hopefully this is a new start for a new me. I need it. My children need it. My family needs it. And my friends need it. 

Everyone needs to be excited to get out of bed in the morning. Everyone needs me to be happy. They need me to be, well me. The woman that I once was before I felt like my world had completely crashed to the ground and there was no picking the pieces up. Then I look into the eyes of my 3 beautiful children, knowing right then and there that I have a reason to get up, dust off and start living again. I actually have 3 reasons. 

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Apr. 26, 2011 at 7:31 AM

you rockgood luck

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Apr. 26, 2011 at 12:24 PM

Just a suggestion, and maybe you just didn't write it, but letting Jesus into your heart can lighten up ALLof those burdens too.  With constant prayer and faith HE may just find that doctor you are looking for and send him to you child's aid. He does do miracles I have seen many.

FAITH in God, CAN move mountains! My faith has pulled me through 56 years of a HARD life!

Seek Him!  God belss

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Apr. 26, 2011 at 1:39 PM


  Well sounds like to me that you have really got it!  Going on and  Your right some times it takes a  strong women to say that stuff like that yes  i have 1  son  I wouldn't  give him up for nutting.. Life is whatever you make it out to be.. And Sound like to me that you have been threw some hard time too  yes so has everyone else but.. You keep fighting the fight! yes  Some times it best  to take a few min and look back and look back what we did what  we can learn from and go on with life . Yes Life don't just stop when someone dieds or get kill or whatever  the world keeps going... So My hat goes to you ...  Stay  Strong!

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Apr. 26, 2011 at 1:39 PM

 Alot of people can Learn from you!! I think i am one of them

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Apr. 26, 2011 at 4:54 PM

well said.............

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Apr. 27, 2011 at 2:38 AM

Thanks for the inspiration... I needed to hear that myself. Stay strong...! :-)

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