At my 6 week pp check up, my dr put in a referral to see a dr with behavioral health. Which I just recently did at 9 weeks pp.

He diagnosed me with major depressive disorder because of my history of on and off depression, and also with post partum depression and post traumatic stress disorder. 

It's hard to deal with everything. I just want to cry all the time and I can't shake feeling alone. Sometimes I want to be social and other times I want the world to just disappear and leave me alone. I can't get rid of my guilt and other feelings associated with my delivery complications and my emergency hyster that I didn't know about until after the fact.

The dr I saw a few days ago put it best....

I lost a very special part of me that I have always had since I was a little girl. I have to rediscover myself because I no longer feel like the same person I was.

I guess I have to just take it one moment at a time...

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Apr. 30, 2011 at 7:52 AM

I'm sorry you are struggling. It's great that you are going to really can help! Some people never get'll be will take time...but, I'm sure you'll soon start to feel better about things. Good Luck!

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Apr. 30, 2011 at 7:45 PM

Hope you feel better!  Yes, he's right...but you will be ok, you are a strong woman!!!  Love ya!! <3

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