Been along time, and alot of heartache.

[MamaBearKeel]

I just decided to rejoin cafemom after a little over a year off.. Lots has gone on in my life...

I just went back and was reading things and saw my journal from aug of 08, and it brings tears to my eyes..... I have lost my father since that post.   Here's a brief of what happend.

Saturday Jan 15th I get a call that my dad has been missing since the night before, no one could find him. He was hanging out with this old hag in West Virgina who has 2 sons who disliked my dad cause there mother liked him and kept him around by feeding him alchol, he did not have a job down there and was staying with his brother. He used to come to Wisconsin to visit and than go back to his brother. Well on the night of the 14th he never called for a ride home, I have been told many diffrent stories, bottom line is on sunday the 16th afternoon his body was found at the end of a hill over a guard rail off a side of a road. I know my father well enough to know this was no accident. The deputy involved down there is an idiot and no one seems to be investigating very well, I have told the deputy things he didnt know cause he didnt have the autposy report.  I truely believe that womans sons are involved, they made many threats towards him and later on found out that the duputy went to talk to them and they were all out of there minds and a needle was found... So I still don't have answers, thing that sticks out in my head is that there were footprints on this hill and they think my dad walked 2/3rds of the way back up, and if thats the case why didnt he come all the way up?? They say he died of a head injury and enviromental.. also was told originally he died the 15th now hearing the 16th and if thats the case where the hell was he all that time??? My heart is so broken, so much unanswered, regrets.. My dad was sent money in november to come see us but he never came, later on my uncle told us that those people stole his money, like before when my dad got money from the accident , a few thousand came up missing, well when he didnt come back I had said some horrible things to him that i wish i could see him again to tell him I didnt mean it and how much I love him. I think about my dad every day... and I will for the rest of my life.

So other than dealing with this, there were some other issues threw the year for my family and others that I dealt with, alot a bad, sad things... But I'm working on building good memories for this year, i dont want to think back and think this entire year has been a waste of my time. So there you have it.

[mamapaparazzi]

Jun. 15, 2011 at 11:42 PM

I am so very sorry to hear about your heartache and loss :(  I hope that justice is served and those responsible pay and that you find peace and comfort.  I'm thinking of you!