For six years I kept you as a friend. For six years I denied myself happiness because I was afraid of what other people would think if I decided to be with you. I was living my life based on what my friends and family thought and didn't put too much value into what I thought and felt.
After you died, I realized I missed out on six whole years. I could have had so much more time with you, but I let it slip through my fingers. I vowed to never live my life based on what other people thought but to only live life based on what I wanted. Being with you taught me this, and I will always be thankful to you for that. Moving forward in life and being hopeful for your future never makes you forget your past.
Never again will I deny myself happiness because I'm afraid of what other people think of my decisions. I will only follow my heart and do what I know is right. I will do what I know is best for me and my children, not what others think is best for me.
I've realized that when a really good thing comes your way, you shouldn't pass it up. Grab hold of it. Love it. Enjoy every moment because you never know how many moments you have left.