He resents my son..

[NatesMommy118]

 To make a long story short here goes nothing....

I met the love of my life when I was 19. We fell in love and got married right away. He ended up going to prison for 6 years for a DUI car accident. He just got out (I am now 26 years old)....While he was away things got rough. I woke up everyday hating my life, wishing I were dead. I was SO unhappy just waiting around. I waited as long as I could, 2 years, then I started to see other people. I ended up getting pregnant (my son is now 2 1/2 years old).  Just before I got pregnant I tried to commit suicide. I ODed on a bottle of musle relaxers and couldn't walk when I woke up. (It eventually wore off). When I found out I was pregnant my whole outlook on life changed. My son has giving me a reason to wake up each day and push forward. SInce I had him I have gone back to school and an now working as a Medical Assistant for an OB/GYN office.

I would LOVE to start fresh with my ex husband and get to know eachother all over again. We both love eachother very deeply and wish things were like they used to be. We used to be SO happy. But he just can't get past the face that when he looks at my son he "sees the pain he came from". Basiclly he resents him. My son is the sweetest boy you'll ever meet. He in so innocent and just wants to be loved. I wish so badly that my ex could see that.

My son's father is not in the picture AT ALL. (his choice). When I was pregnant my ex husband wanted me to put him down as the father (we lost a baby two weeks before he left..so I thought he looked at Nathan as the one we lost). He wrote him letters and signed them "Daddy"....he said he couldn't wait to get out and to do guy stuff with him like teach him how to play ball, take him to the races, fish, etc. But now that he is out...all of that has changed.

I lay awake at night crying...and fight back tears while at work. All I want is to be happy....and I feel like he is the ONE...I just wish to God that it could work out. Even thought I made mistakes...I will NEVER regret my son...he saved my life...I know for a fact that if he wasn't here I would not be here either.

I just hate my life....Karama is a bitch I guess. I deserve all the pain that I'm getting. I guess I put it on myself.  I just feel so alone...I don't really have "friends".....all I have in this world is my Mom (and she sometimes makes me think like she doesn't care either) and my son.

I just don't see how I will ever be happy. I just wish I were dead.

[anichols1]

Jun. 25, 2011 at 7:00 AM

Listen, I understand you care deeply for your ex but if he can't accept you son then there's no way this relationship is going to work! I understand you really want it to but that's not something that can be forced. I'm wondering how long he has been around your son? What does he say that is bothering so much about your son, that fact that he is not his? Your right, it's sad and it would be great if it all worked out the way you want it to but we all know sometimes life just doesn't work out that way . I'm one of these people that would look at it like, there's a reason why this isn't working, like it's a sign. My suggestion to you is this... focus on you and your son and eventually everything else will fall into place. Work on you, you have to get to a place where you are happy with you. You don't need a man to make you happy. Everyone always suggests seeing a counselor wellmaybe that would help you get to the place where you can be happy in your own skin and once that happens you will see your life come together. You and your son both deserve a healthy happy life, that's why you have to get things right with yourself. We all have skeletons in our closets but we can't dwell on our past, you have to move forward , the future has a lot to offer but it's up to you to make the right choices. So, ask yourself, is your ex really the right one for you and your son? I wish you all the best sweetie and remember, life is what you make it!

[Kellyjude1]

Jun. 25, 2011 at 7:04 PM

   It is really sad that your ex resents your son.  If he cannot accept your son, then I do not see how this could possibly work.  While you may love your ex he needs to realize that your son is a part of you.  Your son is innocent in all of this and deserves to be with someone who would not resent him.  I agree with the above post.  Focus on your son, and he will give you the strength you need to get through all of this.  Although you may feel like you will never be happy, sometimes in life things will come when you least expect it.  I am sure you will find happiness, and someone who will love and accept both you and your son.  Please don't feel alone, if you need a friend or someone just to listen you can message me.