I am beginning to finally realize that I truly am addicted to food. I crave it not just for fueling my body, I crave the texture, taste and smell. When I have something I really like ie: cake, ice cream, chips...I can't stop at just a serving. I have to eat 3 servings. I know when I'm doing this, I am conscious of going fro the next serving and inside I'm hating myself doing it. But it's like I have no control over it. In my mind I'm always justifying it by I'll do better tomorrow. I'll just eat it all then I wont be tempted. OMG am I nuts? If I could just stay in my house and not see the ffod I crave I'll do good. No you really wont. Cause next time I go to the store I'll see something I want and justify buying it. How can I stop this madness. I hate myself so much. I hate looking at myself in the mirror.  I hate trying to get into my clothes or how I look in them. I know the correct things to do to lose weight and get healthy. I want to do them so much. I do realize lots of my eating is stress related. I hurt my back at work 2 years ago. Since then I have gained almost 25 lbs. This has put a strain on my health, my outlook, my marriage. There are so many things that hurt me and so I eat. Then I eat some more. I can justify so many things but when push comes to shove I look at the fat person in the mirror and ask Who the hell are you?

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Jun. 26, 2011 at 11:37 PM

Im right there with you.. food addiction is not like substance addiction...an alcoholic can live life never taking another drink or stepping into a bar...a food addict has to face food everyday. how do you battle an enemy that is in your face all the time?

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Jul. 2, 2011 at 10:38 AM

So true. I go to the store, I buy fruits & veggies, salads, lean protein, all the things to prepare a healthy meal & snacks. I eat my 6 mini meals but at the end of a day I still feel dissatisfied. I want my sugary snack. I am trying really hard to wean my self off sugar but man it so hard. I crave that stuff. Then when I give in I can't eat one piece of candy or cookie, I have to eat 5 or 6. The whole time my head is telling me to stop. Then after I do stop I hate myself.

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