So my Mother In Law for a free month trial at a genealogy website so we have been doing some digging past couple of days. Of course all this ancestry searching brings up the fact that I am adopted and I don't know my biological history. I'm 37 and I have known my whole like I was adopted and I've been very okay with that but deep down inside of me I've always been curious to know more.
Every few years I do some searching of my own and always hit road blocks and brick walls. See years ago, the ONLY types of adoptions being done were closed adoptions. I guess someone thought it was better that way but they were wrong. I know nothing. I know my birth date and I know what town I was born in.
But I think I have reached a point in my life where I just have to go for it. My bio-mom would be at least in her 50's and I don't want it to be too late. I don't want to have missed the opportunity to find her and anyone else I might be able to locate.
My own adoption has helped spur my desire to become a surrogate mother. I wonder what my bio-mom would think about that? Would she be comfortable knowing I gave my DNA to help create 3 families? Would she be proud of me?
I look at my girls and see a spitting image of myself. Did my bio-mom look like me? What will I look like when I am older? Are there medical problems in my bio-family that I should know about? What about my bio-father? Maybe I look like him.
I love my parents and will forever. My bio-parents will never replace them. I'm just curious and ready to move forward in my search. Perhaps tomorrow, I can get over my fear of phones and call the Adoption Agency. Wish me luck!