So I guess I am depressed....wow!!

[ratbaby_17]

My son was diagnosed with ADHD and Disruptive Behavior Disorder a couple months ago. He has been going to counseling. His counselor meets with me as well to discuss my son's issues, and the different steps to try with him. While talking with me, she told me one day that she thinks I am depressed. She told me that 85% of the time she sees me, I am crying, or my eyes are swollen where she can tell I have been crying. She said the other 15% of the time, I seem like a very intelligent woman, who seems like a riot to be around. She and I talked about everything that I have going on in my life. We talked about the issues between Chris and I. We talked about the issues between Gino and I. We talked about the business issues between Chris and I (We own a construction company), and we talked about MY hopes and dreams for my own business. We talked about the mediator that Chris and I see. I even gave both my counselor and my mediator permission to talk to each other. 

The counselor then read me something. She told me to tell her how many of the things she was going to read, described me. EVERY symptom of depression was me!! Wow. I always imagined someone that was depressed to ALWAYS be sad, tired, frustrated, moody, etc. I did not think that I was always that way. I have moments where I truely am happy, and I can feel the "old" Jackie popping her head out from behind my ribcage....just to let me know she is still inside. I really want to get her back. 

I made an appt with my OB for my yearly, and I asked him if he could prescribe me something for depression. (No insurance, means I am not going to pay $150 office visit for him, PLUS another office visit for someone else) He wrote me a script for Cymbalta. $170.00 a month!!!!!! OMG!!!! $170.00 a month!!!! That absolutley blows my mind. Needless to say, I paid for it, and then some. 3 perscriptons were $211.00! That is insane. I will have to shell out another $170.00 in 2 weeks when we go to NY for vacation, since the first month will run out while I am there. 

I am taking them though. I need help. I only hope I am not expecting them to do more than they can. I am hoping they will help me be stronger. I hate that I cry so easily....especially if it has anything to do with Chris. I hope they will help me not feel like I have to walk on egg shells around him. I hope they help me stay more patient with my kids. I tend to snap very quickly, very easily with them, and I lose my cool so fast. I am not that person. I also hope they help me to stay motivated to do what I need to do. I generally like to clean. It is a great stress reliever for me, along with writing. Writing is my biggest coping skill. I have not wanted to do either lately. It took me almost 2 months to create the content for my website....for my WRITING company!! I have no ambition at all. I normally am a 100 miles a minute type person. I could multi-task 4 and 5 things at a time. Now I am lucky if I can manage 2! 

I guess I just hope they will help me in any way at all. Maybe if they start helping me, and making me feel better, Chris will see that, and possibly he will realize he needs to be on something as well. Here is hoping!

Is anyone else on Cymbalta? What are/were your expieriences with taking it? I have only taken 2 pills so far, and I feel so tired. I usually am up and at it with no yawining, but the past 2 days, I will yawn until noon! I am not tired enough to go back to bed or anything, but I cant stop yawining! Also, I feel kinda funny....you know how you feel when you get light headed? Or when you have a fever and you stretch? Kinda tingly all over? That is how I feel, but it is only in my torso. My head, arms, and legs feel fine...but my stomach and chest feel lightheaded....if you get my drift.......haha. My dr said it will take 10 to 14 days for the side effects to not be there anymore. I hope so! No side effect so far is enough to make me stop taking them, thats for sure!

[TKsMommie]

Jul. 7, 2011 at 12:32 PM

I found this online.  A lot of the time the drug companies will help you and you can get your medications for a lot less or sometimes free, hope this helps!

 

If you are having trouble obtaining your medication, Lilly, the company that manufactures Cymbalta can help. 
The company is part of a program called PPA, Patient Pharmacy Assistance program. Almost every Pharmaceutical company in the US is part of this program. If you come up tot income guidelines and can obtain a prescription for 3,6 9 or 12months and you can fax over the paperwork, you can get the medication free.:http://www.cymbalta.com/index.jsp then go to 
http://www.lilly.com/responsibility/servingpatients/programs/ 

If however you just need help paying for your medication you can contact Rxassist.org at http://www.rxassist.org/pap-info/company_detail.cfm?CmpId=16 

Coupons are great if you already have insurance and signing up at Cymbalta for coupons and specials is beneficial. You have to be careful, with printing online coupons. Many stores are now getting bombarded with phony coupons and usually balk at taking the ones printed off. Cymbalta offers a free supply and coupons for subsequent prescriptions. Contacting the company or RXAssist assures you of genuine coupons, offers and help getting all of your medications.

source(s):
Cymbalta.com 
http://www.rxassist.org/pap-info/company_detail.cfm?CmpId=16 
http://www.lilly.com/responsibility/servingpatients/programs/

[kansasmom1978]

Jul. 7, 2011 at 12:43 PM

Celexa is what I am on....It's 4 dollars at Walmart!!!!!!!!

I have a stepson with ADHD and a son with Autism.  Me depression is pretty bad at the moment.  I can relate. Stay strong.

[geminiheartz]

Jul. 7, 2011 at 5:36 PM

[MazANDher2]

Dec. 4, 2011 at 4:18 AM

OMG! I am so sorry to hear this is going on with Gino and yourself! I went through depression..been fighting it for 2 1/2 yrs now..well I am finally getting myself back together. I was on Cymbalta for awhile. It seemed to work well with me (im sure u know all the ups and downs nos since u posted this in july)...hope things are doing well.

OAN this is melissa (Mazarati_2003) ♥