Frustrations

[spitfire06]

 They happen a LOT in real life.

When your phone doesn't work. When you have a kiddo come home from the opposite parents house in a separated situation. When that kiddo isn't the kid you sent away.. and all they do is fuss and whine until you end up being so angry with them they go into time out for not listening.

 When your sister goes into rehab for bipolar disease. And you are the only one left to blame for anything and people think that you are keeping track of her.. But you have chosen to leap off into wind tower land and live in a different state every so many weeks to months to years. Why do people always tell me to take care of some one who wants pretty much nothing to do with me anyway?

When your husband/boyfriend/almost husband has to work far far away from you. Your cell phones both aren't working, and you fight because you can't hear or be near or see each other :( And missunderstandings happen though text because you can't hear voice tones..

I just hope he knows how much I have truly been giving into this relationship. I miss not moving more than once a year...But I do like traveling and seeing the world so I guess that balances out.. But now I am the weird mom who is probably doing something NO ONE ELSE approves of.. whatever.. You aren't my decision maker.. world!

 Sometimes SHIT STINKS

but its like you are  going through the phase of sucking a lemon drop as the Pistol Annies put it in their lyrics.. gotta go through the sour before you can taste the sweet.. and it's totally worth it in the end..

 I am fighting so hard for you Ryan because I love you, and you have everything I ever wanted in a man. You are kind, smart, funny, HANDSOME!, A great big teddy bear on the inside, and you love helping. You are a great father, and I hope that you stay that way in our little Star's life.. She loves you to pieces.. she has NEVER EVER talked to any one longer than she talked to you today on the phone when I told her to answer it.. =] It made my day!

 So here is a tribute to all of the wives who have to let their husbands/boyfriends/lovers go off on their adventures. I hope you all end up doing much better than I do..because some how I always fuck it up to where we fight because of mis understandings.. Or because I get frustrated. I hope to be more like you who dont cry at the end of the day because you just GIVE UP when its so hard. I hand cheers to the ladys who have delicious looking homes and work two jobs and have children..

*hug to all the awesome ladies who are out there making the world turn* I often feel like the world stops for me but its because over reacting to things keeps me saner than not reacting at all....