I feel Lost and like a failure. :(

[Trinity0820]

So here goes....

I am trying very hard to make it on my own. I work my ass off, but yet I still barely bring in enough to cover the ESSENTIAL bills, let alone money for the kids clothes.. which is my problem... My dd is gonna be starting Head Start as soon as possible and they need two changes of clothes there. Well in sending that she would be down to two at home aside from her pajamas. DS is in Tiny tots and started today, DH stays home and watches DD. Plus he is on disability and dialysis. I dont know how much more I can take. I had to pawn two of my moms rings *she passed away April 1st* to get money for DS to have clothes for school... I work damn near all the time... Anytime I'm scheduled... I just wish things would hurry up and get back to normal. I asked my grandparents who have all of my moms life insurance money that they were supposed to split between the three of us for help for the kids clothes no calls have been returned therefore I get nothing. I miss my mom, she was my best friend and the only one keeping me sane, I have two friends who stand by me and help when they can and my Dh. thats it... I dont know how much longer I can keep going I miss my kids, I miss life, I miss my mom. I miss being able to do for my kids.... I just wish things would get better and I could get my kids what they deserve...