Things are going to change! I see it clearly now.

[sweet_bumblbee]

So for the past two Sundays I have been been hit hard with the truth! My pastor (who is awesome) had been doing a series called Christian/Atheist. You say your following God and you are christian but you don't live like one. Last Sunday it was about "worry" Which I do constantly! You name it, I am worrying. SO that tells me from the sermon that I am not trusting in god, that he can't handle what ever I am going through. So I have been trying so hard not to worry and leave it all in Gods hands because I do know he can handle it. I need to just put my faith into him. Last week they gave us note cards to write all our worries and nail them to the crosses they had around the rink. When I nailed that note card with my worries to that cross I felt so much lifted off of me.  Today was even more powerful to me! Today was about how we put so much trust into the dollar bill instead of putting our trust into GOD the one that really does provide for us. That hit me so hard! Because of my big worries it's really about money and it does control me and I do put my trust into it instead of just believing in god to provide for me and my family. I also realize that I am selfish with money not wanting to let it go meaning helping those that have less than me. My husband works and I stay at home. We live paycheck to paycheck and we have 5 kids and one on the way and I am always worried about money. I don't want to be selfish and I want to give and I now see I am blessed with the things that god has given to me and my family. At the end of the service is where I started loosing it and my heart now understands how lucky I am. The pastor asked single parents to stand up and so he could pray for them. We don't think sometimes just how hard it is for single parents to struggle to work more than one job and not get to be with their kids like I am blessed. After he prayed for them he asked them to stand in the aisles and asked the congregation to bless them with whatever we had to offer. You wouldn't believe how many people stood up and blessed those single parents! Their was not a dry eyed in the place. I didn't bring any money with me and that hurt I couldn't participate. But I do have close family that are single parents and I know I am going to appreciate them more and do my part to help them when the chance arises.

Here are the two sermons that made me cry and see things so clearly now.

 http://experiencelifenow.com/series_last_week.php

http://experiencelifenow.com/series_this_week.php

If you have time please watch these and let them touch your heart!