hubby issues

[sleepymamaof3]

 

I am so mad. I just spent half an hour writing about my husband and it's gone. Now I am going to make it brief, DH never hangs out with friends, only once in a blew moon unless they are here playing cards. He doesn't go out except to work (which we work at the same company so I know his schedule to the tee) or to the gym, usually takes the family car. His car isn't insured at the moment, so he only drives it if he needs to, other wise he takes my car, which has 3 car seats and tinkerbell stuff everywhere. He talks to random girls on face book, the only friends he has on there, and gives them his telephone number to text back and forth since it is easier than using face book on his phone. He is on his phone non stop, on face book, my year book, texting, etc. We've had issues before where I have found conversations between him and girls about sex stuff. We fight bc he says it's bs bc he is bored and nothing more. I believe that since he never goes out. But it still hurts beyond words and he tells me to deal with it. That that was one of the very few times that happens (sex talk) and that his conversations are not usually like that. Well, I went on his facebook tofay (I just wanted to look up someones page who I used to work with since I found out her father passed away and after she quit the job she blocked everyone she worked with that was friends) and made a stupid mistake of checking his messages. There was a message, and i think it was from last week, about a girl asking if he would pick her up and give her a ride. He said his friend had his car (again, no one drives his car except him bc it isn't insured) but that he would call him and they could both go get her if she wanted. No answer back and it looks like she is not friends with him any more. I know what I did was wrong by looking at it, I really don't need to hear that. I don't remember that day or anything, but I know he didn't leave for anything odd and again, his car just sits in the driveway and he wouldn't take a car with 3 car seats and tinkerbell when he is supposed to be single according to facceboook. 

I don't think he is actually out cheating, but it scares me that you never know. ANd it  bothers me that he spends so much time talking with these strange girls and is flirty. He tells me that I am overreacting and that it is just innocent talk and that no girl will want to talk with him if they know he is married. He hates listening to me complain about this, bc he is sick of telling me over and over that he will never leave me and that he loves me, and I believe that, but why can't he stop this talk. Why can't he be honest? 

The few times he does leave scares me. I keep praying to the Lord to ease my heart and put my fears and pain in his hands, but it's not easy.It's 4:11 in the morning and I am up writing, I can't sleep. 

I don't know what to do anymore.