missing her

[bowennew]

my grandma passed away just a month or so ago. now i know people die, and she was old, but i hurt. there is so much i thought to ask her the day i no longer had a chance. i named my little girl after her. she was one of the only decent people in my torn apart family, she is the only reason i think that i can leave my maternal family and make a good life with my husband, but i forgot to ask HOW? i'm stuck on what do i do, how do i make it work.?most days i feel like shes just at her house but today someone brought me some of her things and it hurts, standing there holding her things and not holding her.

[4grlshelp]

May. 18, 2007 at 12:35 AM im doing the same thing my grandma passed away on the first of this month and i know what you are feeling i am having to go thru my grandmas stuff and it sucks cause i want her here with us and to stay forever to help me and so we can be together and i want to call her and talk to her and all that and i cant and it hurts like the devil  prayers are with you to help you have strength to move on god bless

[4grlshelp]

May. 18, 2007 at 12:37 AM need to talk im here

[Chasity625]

May. 18, 2007 at 12:40 AM I understand where you are coming from. I lost my uncle around Christmas of last year and here it is May and i am still grieving. It is natrual to grieve. You take as long as you need to. There is nothing wrong with it. And you will always have the voice in the back of your mind about what you did or didn't get to say and what if this and what if that. i almost made it in time to see my uncle before he passed but as i got to the door he had took his last breathe and that is something i have to live with the rest of my life/ It is very hard cause i would of loved to just say i love you one last time. And now my Grandma has Alzimers so i am trying to prepare myself for that loss. But i know that i will suffer once again. It is part of life but it is a part i would rather not go through. I wish you the best luck. It will get better in time. Time heals all wounds:) Just think she is in a better place.

[sp30]

May. 18, 2007 at 1:05 AM I understand how you feel. my paternal grandmother died exactly 4 month ago and it still didn't sink in. I miss her a lot.

[bowennew]

May. 18, 2007 at 11:08 PM i was with my grandma when she passed. i held her hand and sang to her and prayed with her. i was blessed because she knew who i was, my husbands grandma doesn't know anyone anymore. still it was hard i was terrified but God stilled my soul and helped me through. i can still hear how she said some of her words in my head. how she said i love you,and i love those babies and tell that husband of your i love him. i hope i never forget that. thank you all for the comments!

(Original Poster)

[mjbfelder]

Jul. 5, 2007 at 10:56 PM I know exactly how you feel about losing someone special.  I lost my 5 year old son to cancer April of 2006.  You never think that it is going to happen to you until it really does.  Again, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[MusikMama]

Jul. 18, 2007 at 9:44 AM

Oh that's so sad.  I lost both my gmas and 3 of my uncles and 3 friends, 2 to suicide all in 1 year.  I planted a rose bush for each of them, that helped a little, I'm reminded of them each time I care for teh roses.

If dreams could build a stairway

and memeories a lane

I'd walk right upto Heaven

And bring you home again