O my I should be sleeping

[GossamerBloom]

So it's 12:30 in the morning. Why am I still awake? The very thought of sleeping nausiates me. Don't get me wrong, I am so glad that the 'morning sickness' is mostly at night this time. It just makes laying down a pain. I have taken (pregnancy safe) sleeping pills almost every day this week. It's so frustrating because even though I'm exhausted, I can't fall asleep. I can't get comfortable and moving makes my tummy hurt.

And then there is the nagging suspicion that as soon as I get even close to dream land Taylor will wake up screaming. It's hot out so it's hot in our apartment. We only have one air conditioner, in the living room, which barely cools that area. The bedrooms are sweltering all the time. We have a fan running in his room, but I don't know if it's enough to keep him comfortable. He woke up twice last night. Although on the up side, he slept in until almost 10 this morning, which means that I got to sleep in until 9, take a shower, get dressed and do my hair before he made a peep. So nice. We even got to leave for our walk before 11, thereby avoiding the warmest part of the day.

I am stressed out as well. I was at work yesterday and it was horrible. I was there, on my feet for 9 hours, and I ended up leaving in tears. My poor manager didn't know what to do with me. He even called today to check up on me. So now I am mortified, and I don't want to go back. Although when Friday morning rolls around I will be there bright and early. Hiding under my hat. I can't believe how emotional I am this time around. And I don't know if I will be able to continue doing my job through out  this pregnancy. I have considered asking to be trained in another area, to alleviate some of the stress but at the same time, I don't  want to cross any lines right now, given my recent breakdown.

So, instead of sleeping, I sit up watching The Holliday. I must say it is a wonderful movie. My sweet husband rented it on Saturday, so I have it until Friday, but it just seemed like a good activity to pass the time.

Ah, so ends my gentle rant.  

[scb2007]

Jun. 12, 2007 at 9:00 AM if at all possible, try napping during the day. morning sickness sucks- but im sure night sickness is worse! i remember being sooo thankful to crawl in my bed at the end of the day when i was pregnant, i cant imagine having to deal with being sick like that. hope you feel better soon!

[pixiepie]

Jun. 12, 2007 at 4:30 PM awww man i know hopw you feel i had both morning and nite sickness when i was pregnant for the entire time! it was terrible i couldnt eat in the morning casue i was so nauseus and if i ate any kind of meat after 5 or 6 oclock in the evening i would be sick all nite long. i did try herbal teas that helped but other than that i dont know what to tell you besides naps are wonderful,. i used to be up all nite with movies too. good luck momma you can make it through.

[larissacst]

Jun. 12, 2007 at 6:40 PM i know about the heat, i live in texas and it's already 96 here. what we did is bought a couple of oscillating fans. about $13 at wal-mart. that also helps with the electricity bill. try drinking some gatorade for energy. it became my best friend last summer. hope you feel better.

[KeanynSymon]

Jun. 13, 2007 at 1:52 AM

I can't get any sleep either if it makes you feel any better.  It's 1 am and I am not anywhere near sleep and when I take the sleeping pills I can't MOVE in the morning.. they really knock me out!  Hope things start getting better for you.

[carolinek]

Jun. 14, 2007 at 12:18 PM

poor thing! I feel badly for you. I hated having no a/c in my bedrooms when I lived in an apartment. Is Taylor in a crib or bed? If he's in a bed, you might try having him sleep in the living room with the a/c unit on. As for the morning sickness, I have to say Congrats! b/c I didn't know you were expecting #2! Take care!