My 5th baby!!!???!!!!

[MrsMacmodels]

ok , i have been pregnant enough, this shoulnt be that big of a shock, yet here i am waking up every morning with that sick feeling for about the first hour im awake and i look at myself in the mirror and say, "can i do this again?" i am alomst 30 now, had my first when i was 19.....i have an 8 year old, 4 year old twins and a 2 year old....now im due in feb!!  I love my children, they are my world, so why am I so scared to have one more? (did i mention I had the IUD when I got pregnant?) what are the chances? 99% the dr said, that I wouldnt get pregnant.....then there is purpose for everything, right? This must be part  of God's master plan for me, I'm just not sure I'm ready, but ready or not, here it goes!!! My question is, when does the excitement kick in and the fear go away? Will it be my first ultra sound? When I hear the heartbeat for the first time? I'm not sure, but I do know that life throws things our way that we may not be ready for, and maybe thats what makes us stronger people....I know I will love this child as much as I love all my children, he/she will teach me things I never knew just as my others have, and overall, I know that I have been blessed...a child is a precious  gift from God, I just wonder why he feels i need so many gifts?!?  =) till next time.........

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[joyveggiemom]

Jun. 15, 2007 at 5:25 PM i have miscarried a lot so for me the excietment never kicks in