I CAN'T BELIEVE I LET IT COME TO THIS.   I STARTED SMOKING CIGG.'S AGAIN I'M JUST SO TIRED OF BEIBG DEPRESSED ABOUT BEING FAT.

IT SEEMS LIKE ONCE A WEEK I BALL MY EYES OUT CUZ, IM TOO FAT & NO MATTER WHAT I DO EXERCISE CUT BACK ON FOOD OR BOTH I KEEP GAINING WEIGHT.

IT DIDN'T USED TO BE LIKE THIS WHEN I WAS SMOKING I WOULD LOSE ALL MY BABY FAT IN A WEEK BUT, AFTER I HAD DYLLIN MY 3RD CHILD & LAST SON I QUIT SMOKING & GAINED LIKE 30 LBS. & I KEPT GAINGING. SO I STARTED SMOKING AGAIN TO LOSE THE WEIGHT.

I KNOW ITS BAD FOR ME IN SO MANY WAYS & I FIGURED A YEAR IS JUST LONG ENOUGH I CAN'T TAKE THIS DEPRESSION & WEIGHT GAIN HAVING TO WASTE MONEY EVERY WEEK BUYING NEW CLOTHS & CRYING OVER IT I FEEL LIKE IM LOSING MY MIND SOMETIMES.

SO YEAH I STARTED SMOKING AGAIN AT LEAST UNTIL I GET A JOB TO KEEP ME ON MY TOES 24/7.

I KNOW EVERYONE IS GOING TO LOOK DOWN ON ME IN MY FAMILY BUT, I DON'T CARE I WOULD MUCH RATHER BE THIN & EVERY1 SAY WOW HOLLY YOU LOOK GREAT AFTER HAVING ALL THOSE KIDS YOU DONT LOOK LIKE YOU GAINED A LB.? THEN GEESH HOLLY HOW MUCH DID YOU PUT ON THIS WEEK?

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mandk...
Jun. 16, 2007 at 8:43 AM hey i understand, i started smoking again after the baby was born to lose weight to. when my daughter was the age my son is now i had lost the weight and then some.  i had lost 55 lbs. after i had him but havent lost anymore in so long, and i still feel fat.  i exercise everyday, dont drink soda and dont really have any junk food and i still cant lose weight. i really feel down alot because of it, all i want to lose is 20 and it would make me feel so much better about myself but i just cant do it. i even told myself that as soon as i lose the 20 i would quit smoking, but it hasn't happened yet. so try not too feel bad, i feel for you.

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