Two years ago today...

[cafemama]

I was getting ready for this:

I must admit it feels like a lot longer ago then two years. A distant memory. All that work and planning and how is it that I can hardly remember it? Thank goodness for all the photo documentation we have to jog my memory.

I wonder how it would feel today if we hadn't had Spence so quickly? What would these 2 years have been like for us? I think "completely different" is the best answer. There's no way of knowing. We would have taken more vacations to exotic places. And we probably would be closer in some ways - the ways you're closer when you aren't completely drained at the end of the day and you have time to devote to each other.

There's truly nothing that could compare to the closeness of having a child together. But, it's never just the two of us anymore. Even when we have the fleeting time alone together, we're not really alone. Our thoughts and often our conversation have a way of creeping back to Spence even when we try to concentrate on each other.

I'll admit I'd like more wifely attention some days. A huge slathering of love to make the tired go away. To make me feel beautiful. To be silly and playful like we used to be. And I wish I had more to give my husband. More love. More appreciation. More thank you's for being such an awesome hands-on father. He deserves so much.

It's definitely not been easy, but I think we're weathering it well. And I do see some light - things are getting a bit easier. We're getting a bit more sleep these days.  It's a little easier to find time to ourselves.  And when all else fails we have an amazing little boy to remind us of how beautiful our love is. 

[melner]

Jun. 18, 2007 at 3:41 PM Ya'll look beautiful!!!

[Heightsmom]

Jun. 19, 2007 at 10:31 PM

A beautiful couple on a beautiful day... and now a beautiful family!!!  Contiue to try to steal those moments together.