Not so good news

[JourniLove]

I went to work today and they called me into the office. They said that my services were no longer required. They offered no explanation when I asked why they said it is the the County's policy to keep that info private. They gave me a phone number to the personnel office to find out. When I called the personnel office they gave me the policy line again and stated that this was only a 12 week assignment anyway for the summer and that I could've been let go at anytime. I knew it was for the summer but didn't know I could be let go this fast.  They also said it may be related to something that could've happened on site, attendance issues, or background checks but they couldn't tell me why.

  I am deeply humbled right now and seriously confused. I was only late once, got along with everyone, stayed late almost everyday, and really enjoying my job and the kids. The only thing on my background that would've come up is "driving on suspended license". What makes me the most upset is that my own kids count on me and I feel like such an ASS to have to look them in the face and tell them I lost my job.

My kids are growing out of their clothes and I told them "just hang on a little longer, when mommy catches up & we will take care of all of that."  But now what? I'm already behind on bills. Everyone I owe has been patient so far and working with me because I have been I have been trying hard to pay my bills. I can barely afford gas and diaper costs even with this job. UUUUUUUUUUUUGGGHHH!!! I'm just so frustrated! Especially when I REALLY have been trying to live right. I don't buy ANYTHING unnecessary and still struggle.

 If only I had really understood the choices I was given in life when I was younger like how important school was, and to not have children so young without a plan. I'm definitely learning the hard way. Even so I have to keep faith and see the bright side that maybe there is something wonderful that will happen and I will be blessed with something better. I am just so caught up in the emotions right now.

So if you are unable to reach me this is why. I have to take some time to really get focused and find something else fast while patiently waiting for something better. Love you guys. Wish this could've been a better report.

Can't hide what I'm going through anymore. I guess I am conquering my fear of shame.

[MamaBeth]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 11:07 AM i'm sorry hun *big hugs* . But some  states  can fire "at will"  it doesn't matter what you did right or  wrong.

[2protectivemom]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 11:18 AM I am sorry you are going through this !  I will say a prayer for you and your family .

[Angela7780]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 11:19 AM

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I've had very rough times myself and there is hope. You're such a good person, you'll probably come out of this better than when you started. Quit blaming yourself for past mistakes. We've ALL made our fair share.  Wish I could help more.

[shaye]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 11:22 AM

Wow I really hope things get better.  It isn't easy when there isn't the money to take care of the things that are needed...  You are not a bad mom though you are doing your best and you will get through this.  Love your kids and keep on trying.  Strong women like you are not ones that are to fail.  It will be hard, but you will be fine. 

Blessings

**Shaye**

[soulsister72]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 11:23 AM Girl, please believe that this doesn't reflect on your worth as a person....don't get down on yourself. Maybe this is opening the door for another opportunity, a better one; sharpen the resume, stay in prayer and KEEP YOUR HEAD UP; I hope Dad will step up or at least shore up the financial side harder while you regroup, you deserve that. Tell the kids that sometimes life isn't fair, bad things happen and then we MOVE ON. You'll make it Friend, keep the faith.....

[2girl3boy]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 11:31 AM so sorry you have to go trough this rough spot in your life right now...hang in there I am sure something will come your way....good luck!

[MrsCasper]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 11:42 AM

hey sweetie. you will be in my thoughts on this matter. i know what it's like to be behind on bills (near the edge of bankruptcy!), diaper and FORMULA costs, and having a little one (in my case, 1) to provide for. my husband is the one with the job, but it's nothing to brag about...since we're STILL living with my parents..have been for a year!! (it really sucks)

i understand where you are coming from and i truly pray things get better for you and your family and may God bless you with a new, good paying job that you can enjoy! God bless you, my friend!

Krista Casper 

[bigblueeyes]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 11:54 AM it's gonna be fine!.....and you're not an "ass" for losing a job and having to tell your kids that it happened.....from the sounds of things there was nothing you did to cause it and nothing you could have done to prevent it.....keep your chin up!

[momtojillnphil]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 12:20 PM I'm so sorry!  Don't be to hard on yourself it doesn't sound like they based the decision on anything personal.  I have learned over the years that everything that happens, happens for a reason.  A new opportunity will present itself in some form.  My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[RebelMom]

Jun. 25, 2007 at 1:57 PM I can't believe they couldn't give you a reason. That just doesn't sound right. I hope you find something! Try to stay positive!