Oh geez I cant take this anymore I have been dealing with a husband who constantly critises me and makes me look like a fool or treats me like a 5 yr old when we talk to each other and I finally decided to divorce him late yesterday. I was abused when I was a child and I feel like im in an abusive relationship now. I told my husband I contacted a lawyer yesterday and he got upset and started yelling at me calling me a Bitch and a Horrible Mom to my children and it hurts so bad to hear that because I dont want my kids to be without a mommy and daddy and if I leave they lose their Daddy in a sense and I dont want my kids hating me like my husband says they will. I cant deal with this and my stress level is way up I think I need to go back to Shepard Pratt because my emotional turmoil is killing me inside and I want a guy who will treat me right but I know deep down that no one will want me or thats what my husband has drilled into my head. God why do I have to live with this I want a better life for me and my kids but I dont want my kids to hate me because those girls are my life and if they hated me Ide die!