I am just so tired

[Lyndall]

I am so tired of everything right now.  I can't sleep at night .  truely I am getting about 3 hours of sleep each night.  I tell my dear husband he tells me to get up earlier.  He is in bed a bare minimum of 10 hours a night and whenI tell hhim I would like to sleep in because I didn't fall asleep until the sun was coming up he tells me I sould stay up so I can be sleepier when I go to bed.  I would go for that but this has been going on for over a week I just can't keep going and getting up which I have been doing isn't helping at all.

My 6 year old has decided the only way to talk is to whine.  SHe whines about everything and often not even words just a whine if she dosen't like something.  If she isn't whining she is hanging on me.  she will jsut walk up and throw herself on me.  I keep stopping her and telling her no but she just keeps on.

 I do ok when interacting with people but as soom as I am alone I just want to cry.  I am not even sure why.  I love my kids but they are driving me crazy.

 the 12 year old will not leave the 6 year old alone.  He has some smart remark to say when ever the other kids talk.  In fact it has been quite a while since I heard him speak with out being a smart mouth

The 9 year old is just so noisy.  and forgetful.  I tell him things and he "forgets" them right away.

The Oldest keeps pecking at me.  she will walk up real close and start pecking on my arm and til I ask her what.  I know she can't help it with her handicaps but it is begining to get to me.

My loving hubby just keeps ignoring things.  I asked him 3 weeks ago to get outr airconditioner inthe window so I could sleep better but he hasn't done it yet so I am sharing a bunk bed with Nate because there is no way I can sleep in this heat.  I guess he dosen't care that I am not with him because he isn't getting it done.  Most of the time Dh just goes through life ignoring me.  I mean he expects meals and all but to do anything with me or to interact with me.  Nope dosen't happen. 

while the three kids are outside playing in the hose I think I will lay down and have a good cry maybe I will feel better then.