Midlife

[LaSagen]

Midlife is a new stage in my life. In many ways it is different then life before, and yet I still have some of the same longings I have always had. I cannot remember when I came to realize I that I like writing. I write mostly from my life experiences, thoughts and feelings.  Today is a day that I need to write. Actually I think I need to write more anyway. There are a lot of uncertainties, and waning feelings for which I have yet to put into words. What is it I am supposed to be doing at this time in my life? I am not the normal midlifer, as I still have kids at home, and don't see any of them leaving in the near future.  This often places me in a catagory with younger moms, and though I love their enthusiasm and eagerness for life, I still feel a bit out of place.  It is not adequacy that I feel. It is more of a realization that I have already gone through much of what they are experiencing now. Besides the 4 kidos I have still at home,I have grown children too. 

This midlife stage is perhaps a bit like the teen years. It isn't as erractic and desperate, but it has brought me to a place to searching again and re-examinining my life. I feel myself cautiously trying to think things through. I don't want to become as impulsive as I once was . Still, I  don't want to cower from the uncertainty of my future. I desire to embrace these moments. I sense they  may be more fleeting then my adolescent years.  As before, I must continue on my midlife journey with all of its gatherings of  Knowledge, understanding, and embers of  wisdom along the way. It is as if I have a special basket  overflowing with life's little treasures. Treasures that can only be discovered through the walk of life.

[ohwrite]

Jul. 10, 2007 at 3:20 PM Funny, you've been feeling the same as I have, I need to write. Writing is part of who I am, and I've put it on the back shelf for so long now. I've also been feeling that need to re-examine my life and what I want from here on out........I was telling you the other day at my house that Paul wanted me to take some time for my health, I've been saying I need to take some time to re-invent myself. I know you still have younger ones at home, but I feel like I'm changing so much that it's time to redefine who I am, I'm not going to be raising kids much longer, I still want romance and adventure in my life, new experiences, but I don't feel that frantic desperation either, it's a more peaceful content desire. I definitely feel that I have a lot too accomplish, but no longer do I feel time limits for those accomplishments. I'm so glad we're friends, and look forward to a long friendship watching our kids grow and change, and expanding our own experiences.......By the way, Thursday is best for me if that works. Tari

[LaSagen]

Jul. 16, 2007 at 7:06 PM It 's amazing. Here we are going through some of the same feelings and thoughts, and yet we find so little time to get together. I do hope that we can continue our friendship for long term and be a resource, support and sounding board for one another. I love it when we get together. We have a lot in common and maybe even enough differences to encourage one another to stretch ourselves and explore areas of ourselves we have let lay or that have become dorment. A reawakening! Lydia

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[LaSagen]

Aug. 16, 2007 at 11:38 AM

Still here and still in my Midlife. Interesting how many changes can happen in our bodies in the middle of our lives. And a play on words, In our middles. I like this time of my life, because I am more at peace and less worried about things. I just wish I had my old figure and energy back. Boy did I take all of that for granted. Didn't ever suspect I would change as much as I have physically. I like that I am more sensible and have learned from all my mistakes. I have had a far from normal life, which at times I whined and fretted about. Now I must say, I have come through it pretty sane.

I would love to have more friends tell about their lives and changes in life, how they cope and what things they enjoy now. I like to write, does anyone else find writing therapeutic. I find it helps me sort through and to stay more centered. I feel  more satisfied if  I have time to write. 

 One thing I have always hope was that I would be able to help someone else in some way by sharing my life and experience, and I love learning from others and what they share.

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