My testimony: Part 7~Final Entry

[faithlovinmom]

July 31, 2007

Part 7: Overcoming and Receiving

We decided to take the step out in faith believing the Lord said "it was time". Time to move on to this new job where Rodney could once again witness to whom the Lord will send. Once Rodney agreed to take the job, we were so blessed to find out that he would be making more than he was first offered. He will have better hours and get bonuses. Also, we could now afford health insurance with this new company. The future looks good.

On holiday, we took the kids to Disney World. It has changed way to much and not in a good way. We won't be going back. Anyway, I like to visit the different countries in Epcot. One evening while visiting Japan, we decided to eat at their hibachi restaurant. Towards the end of our meal (which was excellent), a couple began talking about their church and the troubles they were having there. This couple wasn't sure if they should continue to go there. They said that their pastor never seemed to be preaching on actual scripture from the Bible. The Spirit of the Lord moved all over Rodney and he began to speak to them. It was awesome. There were 6 families at this table. Three hours later, they were all still there and a small crowd had gathered, listening intently the words that were spoken to them. Even the children behaved! We wrapped up just at closing time. Everyone left full of joy and feeling blessed.

I must say, watching Rodney as he is witnessing to someone is amazing. I have witnessed to many over the years, three extensively. It is nothing compared to what Rodney does. With Rodney, and only by the Spirit of the Lord in him, he will speak to a person and tell them something about themselves that no one but the Lord can know. The looks of amazement on their faces is priceless.

One weekend, we decide to take the kids down to visit my mom and sister(we get along now). I had also been keeping in touch with a friend from high school by yahoo messenger. We'll call him "N". "N" was also going to come by and meet the family and have some grilled hamburgers with us. Saturday morning, mom and I are getting things prepared for the BBQ. My sister isn't there yet so we call to find out why. Finally, late in the afternoon she shows up with her boyfriend and her daughter. My sis looks terrible, and tired. She looks like she is coming down from a crack high. She doesn't know, that I know, she is addicted to crack. I have known for a while now. I am able to witness the demon that has a hold of her. Remember the words the Lord spoke to her while at the restaurant in part 5? It has come to pass. My sister is in need of a fix so she begins to drink wine.(it will pacify the demon for now) The guys are out at the grill grilling those hamburgers. My friend "N" arrives, grabs a drink and gets to know everyone. By this time, my sis is pretty well on her way to being sloshed. This causes an argument between her and her boyfriend. He did not want her to drink at all. I am now the referee. Sis grabs me by the arm and leads me out to the porch. Rodney is sitting at the table. She looks at me, then at Rodney and asks us to pray for her. Sis tell us that she wants "it" gone. We know she means the demon. I know whats coming, I go get a towel and a bucket. Rodney and Sis sit across from each other in a couple of chairs. Rodney begins to pray for her. Everyone in the room scatters. Sis keeps repeating over and over "come out", "come out" moaning and groaning loudly. Her boyfriend is not happy about what we are doing and asks us to stop. We ignored him. He walks over to Sis and grabs her by the arm. Sis jerks her arm from his grip and sits back down. Rodney continues to torment the demon with the Word of God (it weakens them). He then tells the demon of sorcery(drugs) to come out of her in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Sis leans over and throws up in the bucket. When she has finished, Sis tell us that the demon is gone. She felt it come out of her. She was still sloshed, but now free from the torment of the demon and the addiction to crack.. When I saw her the next morning, she didn't mention what had happened to her. I am not sure if she remembers or was embarrassed. Regardless, I love her and I am here for her. I just hope she now stays clean. I kind of felt sorry for my friend "N". We didn't get to chat much because of the incident with my sister. I asked him if he thought we were crazy. He said no, he had seen this stuff before. "N" and I continue to keep in touch over the next few months.

My days are becoming strange and I am having trouble sleeping. I can't quite figure out what's going on with me. I begin to have weird dreams. Then they begin to happen while I am awake. They all seem to be thoughts or visions of my friend "N". I pray and ask the Lord to make them all go away, but it just gets worse. Rodney has gone out of town so I can't ask him what to do. They are getting more intense with feelings now for "N". The dreams and visions are horrible! I have never had feelings in any way other than friendship for "N". These thoughts are telling me that I want to be with this young guy, who is financially secure,and has a lot to offer. I realize now these are not my own thoughts! I begin to fight them and I am in constant prayer. Rodney is home now and I know he knows what is going on but he doesn't say anything. I feel like my mind is being taken over. I go into the bathroom and shut the door. I drop down to my knees and cry. I plead with the Lord to make it all stop. I do not want these thoughts in my head. I do not want this guy. I do not want to loose my salvation. I do not want to lose you Lord. Slowly my head begins to clear. The Lord says, "Have no fear little one for I am here". The Lord tells me that I have been tempted of the devil and have overcome. That I have made the right choice in choosing Him over all else. That in my time of trouble, I stood strong in my faith. I have now proved unto myself where my hearts treasure is. The Lord told me how to rebuke the spirits that had tormented me and I did. I asked the Lord how did all this happen? The Lord tells me that my friend "N" believes in a kind of spiritual witchcraft. "N" had played the games of dungeons and dragons and others when he was younger. He has learned to use incantations to send forth spirits to bring about what he wants. The Lord said "N" had had feelings for me since high school. He now wanted me for himself. So "N" spoke an incantation to conjure a spirit. He sent forth this evil spirit to torment me and convince me to become his. Thankfully, it did not work. One thing "N" didn't count on though, was how strong my faith was in Jesus. I sent "N" and email telling him that I know what he did and that we could no longer be friends. The Lord told me that he still can't figure out why it didn't work this time.

The next night before bed, I heard the Lord say to me "it is time". I ask, "Time for what Lord"? He tells me that he has known where the treasure of my heart has been all along. Now you have proved it unto yourself. He tells me it is time for me to receive the Holy Ghost and Fire. I said that I thought that I had already had it all along. The Lord said no, you had been given only the power to become the son of God, now you will receive. The Lord told me to take a deep breath. I took a deep breath and the air was very hot (like when you open an oven and the hot air comes rushing out at you). I did this two more times. Wow! My whole body felt like it was on fire! The fire is that zeal that burns deep within us. Luke 3:16 John answered, saying unto them all, I indeed baptize you with water; but one mightier that I cometh, the latchet of whose shoes I am not worthy to unloose; he shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost and with fire. The Lord then asks me if I am ready to receive the fullness of his spirit. I said, "Yes Lord!" He told me to be still and worship and praise him. I began to praise him and it felt as though someone was crawling across the bed. I peeked, but no one was there. I closed my eyes again and began to praise him. Again it continued to come across the bed at me. I held my breath and ............I felt the Spirit of the Lord enter me! I quivered just a little. I am so overwhelmed, I just sit there a minute. I begin to feel a joy bubble up inside me that I just can't contain. I am grinning from ear to ear giggling to myself, sitting alone on my bed. The Lord then asked me, "Are you blessed little one?" Whoa! I can hear the Lord so clearly now. I said, "Absolutely Lord!" It was June 3rd, 2007. The Lord told me not to mention it to my husband the next day, let him witness it on his own.

I was the last to get up the next morning (I was up late). I came out of the bedroom and told everyone good morning. I didn't look at Rodney. I was still bubbling over and knew I would give it away if I looked at him. I began to start breakfast and I can tell Rodney is watching me. He then yells "Oh My! Your glowing with the Spirit of the Lord!" He did witness it! Even the kids noticed. I spent the next hour telling Rodney all that had happened with me. I told him that I had thought I was filled with the Holy Ghost these last twelve/thirteen years. I heard the Lord's voice, I had some revelation of his word(not all), I could feel his presence, he worked heavily in our lives. I thought that we received it automatically after baptism or once we had been saved. I had been wrong. Rodney explained to me that as in John 1:12 But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name. We are only given the power to received the fullness of the Holy Ghost as he wills. Most are content with their walk with God and they choose not to go any further. They become complacent. They are like unto the tribe1/2 that chose to stay on this side of Jordon instead of crossing over into the Promised Land. Also, like unto the foolish virgins. They have the word but no oil(no Holy Spirit).

Three days later, I am anointed with oil into the ministry that the Lord tells me he is giving me. A ministry unto the women that I may share the True Word, uplift them and encourage them to seek the Lord with all their heart. This has been the purpose of writing my testimony. To show you that God will work in your life just as he has in mine. That you may all know that God loves you and the Holy Spirit is here for you, but you must first cross the Jordan. You must step out of the boat as Peter did. For God is a rewarder of those that diligently seek him. Once you cross the Jordan and prove unto yourself where you will stand, the Lord will bless you with the filling of his Holy Spirit and Fire. I can say that being filled with his Holy Spirit is a blessing above measure. There is an overwhelming joy and happiness that fills your heart. You will have a calming peace that flows endlessly like a river. You will have a zeal that makes your soul on fire for the Lord and the Word. You will have a love and a compassion for your fellow brethren that you did not have before. You will acquire wisdom and knowledge in all the things of God. You will receive an understanding or revelation of God's word that will astound you. You will discern and try the spirits that come and know if they are of God. It will not matter if others come against you or if they say your interpretation of the word is false. You will know the truth, for by His Spirit he has shown you. Then you will "know that you know, that you know, and no one can tell you any different." You will be able to stand strong in your faith and not waver. You will do the works that Jesus did and greater. You will now be as the wise virgins, which have the True Word of God, and also the oil, which is the Holy Ghost.

Psalms 105:1-4

O Give thanks unto the Lord; call upon his name:

make known his deeds among the people.

Sing unto him, sing psalms unto him:

talk ye of all his wondrous works.

Glory ye in his holy name: let the heart

of them rejoice that seek the Lord.

Seek the Lord, and his strength:

seek his face evermore.

 

I pray that each of you find this new and wondrous relationship with our Lord.

Peace and Love in Christ Jesus to you all,

Lisabeth

 

 

[gab15th]

Aug. 3, 2007 at 8:09 AM I hadn't read the other ones, but wow, on this one!  I only wish and pray I could hear God over my own voice!  But I'm still a baby in His eyes... I've just began to crawl about a year ago!

[faithlovinmom]

Aug. 3, 2007 at 11:49 AM

Just continue to seek him, for he is a rewarder of those that diligently seek him.  He is here for you and will guide you. Just don't give up.  Hold on to your faith and don't let anyone sway you.  When you have question go directly to God. He will answer you.

Peace and love in Christ.

(Original Poster)